22 weeks pregnant… life craziness

I can’t wait until I can do this. I have been sitting here watching my stomach move, not just feeling it, but watching it. Its unbelieveable. I still can’t believe that there is a little life growing inside of me. I keep watching my stomach in amazement. I should be doing things around the house but I keep getting distracted by the little nudger. 

I’m off of work…. today… tomorrow…. forever. *sigh* J called me up and told me that her mother decided to stay an extra week so she was going to watch Niko and then R is going to be coming home to try and smooth over his marriage with J so she doesn’t think she is going to need me, and the woman that is coming in to replace me wants to start by the 10th of May. So instead of working until the end of May, now it looks like I’m done. Which would be fine… if hubby and I weren’t moving in 3 weeks. We were counting on that $1800 to get us over the hump with this move since its going to be expensive. J says that she is going to work with me, but I’m really worried now. It was going to be tight as it was and now this is going to make it worse. And its not just the move that I’m worried about, but being able to get everything ready for the baby. We are going to have to be really careful to make sure that we can get the things that we need. Its going to be hard.

But… on the plus side…. we are having a baby shower on Friday. My family has been going insane. Allison and my mum went out shopping yesterday and had a great time from what I hear and they still aren’t done shopping lol. I am so excited for this baby shower! I wonder how good this little nudger is going to make out. I feel kinda bad for Chris. My mum went to him to ask him about things that she is getting and he is upset that it won’t be a surprise for him. I want him to know that this shower is for both of us…. and I feel badly that he doesn’t feel like he is part of this. I want him to feel like he is part of this pregnancy, part of the baby and I don’t know that he feels that way. I wish there was something I could do. He is coming to the baby shower because I wanted it to be an open shower. There are going to be lots of other guys there… this isn’t a woman only shower, but maybe I should be doing something more to include Chris. He looked so upset about knowing some of the big surprises…. I just don’t know what to do.

And time is going by slow and fast at the same time. I can’t believe that I’m 22wks! Only 17 weeks and 6 days to go if I end up being full term. The little nudger moves around so much now, and I keep wondering what its going to be like to be a mommy and I can’t wait to see Chris be a daddy… its going to be amazing. 

I guess I should get off here…. have so much stuff to get done today before hubby gets home from work. And he works so hard and does so much. I remember watching him the other day, thinking about how lucky I am, to have someone who supports me, who is on my side, who works hard to have a great life with me. He is such an amazing guy, and he works so hard for us, for our family, for us to have a great life. We were talking about our high school reunion the other day and I said how I don’t really have any desire to go since I wasn’t a big fan of most of the stuck up people that I went to high school with, but he said that he wants to go, he wants to go and show me off… his trophy wife hahaha…. he wants everyone to see how great he and I have it. And that just made me feel so great inside that he thinks so much of me… and I’m just not used to that. 

Ok ok ok…. now I’m done. I’ll right more later. 

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life