November 13, 2008

you know what…. I give up

Thats pretty much all I want to say.

Chris is deploying in January it looks like. Where he told me before isn’t where he is going, its somewhere else and when he does find out he can’t even tell me where. Its top secret.

I sat at work today is a pissed off mood because I knew that he was getting deployed earlier then we thought.

I was doing so well with dealing with it all.

Then I finally get off work, get into my car.

It won’t fucking start.

J and I try to jump in… nothing. Chris comes and tries…. nothing.

Fanfuckingtastic

So now I am trying to get ready since his gig is tonight. Don’t know what the hell I am going to wear. Found another fucking roach in the bathroom while I was trying to get ready. I have been fighting tears for the last hour and I don’t know if I am upset, frustrated, angry or all 3. I feel like total shit.

You know what…. fuck it all… I give up.

I’m done.

photobucket … don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life

Red_James

November 14, 2008

*hug*

aphillips

**HUGS**

*offers some more hugs* i’m sorry hun, i know that will make it ten times harder not even knowing where he’ll be. 🙁 p.s. i’ve been reading but horrible at noting. heh….

Never give up, the only reason I’m writing this to you is because I never gave up, and you were the one to tell me so…So here I am telling you the same NEVER GIVE UP. Yes, it’s not going to be easy nor fun in fact its going to be really screwed up but never ever give up, you’re a great person and this crap happens to the best of us. Hold on tight you’ll make it through,keep hanging on !

InMyBox

November 15, 2008

aww hon *hugs*

lovq

so much love. even if nothing will help right now, im still here. and still love you. m.

SweetTam

*HUGS* You will get through this!

*hugs*

RYN: I know you’re a very strong person and believe me it shows, I understand that it’ll be hard I actually full understand how hard it will be, I have to go through it, I do stay in bed alot and I’m slacking at everything Im failing school, and to me you’re stronger than I am eventhough I’ve never said that to anyone, I think you are and I hope you can cope with it…

I know you use your diary to let things out so do I, I’d never say anything out loud. At times it feels like your world has lost its meaning but I know for sure you’ll stay strong, there will be unbearable days, but theres no doubt in my mind you’ll pull through it, you’re that strong I know that much. You’re a great person have no doubt. Keep that chin up.Much love.