and the waiting begins

 Well I dropped Chris off this morning to post at 7am. Now I get to wait. I’m so upset with myself because I wrote him this really heartfelt letter to take with him and I forgot to give it to him. I’m so upset that I forgot…

I have been sitting here for an hour… and that has gone by so slowly. This is going to be a long week.

I was good though, no tears save for a few on the drive back to the house…. geez….. I’m going to be a wreck when he deploys for 9 months. I wonder how much more training he is going to have to go through that eats away at the 8 months that we have left. I hope that we get to spend a lot of time together but he has this week and 2 weeks of WLC when he finally gets to go to that. Its crazy how little time there is before he leaves and how much I want to spend with him. Its going to be a lot of moments to enjoy and so little time to enjoy them in.

*sigh*

Chris and I went to the 3D showing to The Nightmare Before Christmas. It was amazing. It was the first 3D showing for both of us. We had the glasses that looked really funny on us but it was awesome to see the snow flakes coming at you and all the characters popping off the screen like they were right in front of you. It was so much fun.

I have to babysit today at 2:30, but its only for 2 hours and considering that I got about 2 hours of sleep last night I think that when I get home I will take a nap. Though I have considered that it might be a better idea for me to stay up so I will be more tired and be able to fall asleep tonight. The first night apart is always the hardest and I could use all the help I can get to fall asleep tonight. Chris has to share a room with someone so I have a feeling that we won’t be able to fall asleep on the phone like we did when we were apart before.

I have 3 hours to bum around before I need to take a shower and start getting ready for babysitting. Maybe I will go to the mall today but I want to spread stuff out. I don’t know what my plan for the week is. Maybe my plan for the week should consist of getting through the weekend first.

Haha I must sound like such a baby. Its not like I haven’t done a deployment before but this is so much harder…. because I love Chris so much more.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life