trying to get back on track

Seems that yet again I have been slacking on the writing. I would like to say that I have been busy and in a way I have been but I have been busy around the house or feeling like crap… not busy in the sense that I have been going anywhere.

I found that I have a channel called FitTV. Everyday there is a show that comes on called Shimmy, and its all about learning how to bellydance. Its a good workout and since I have decided that I need to work out more and get into better shape I’m so glad for this channel. I would really and ultimately like to take an actual belly dance class but 1. I don’t know where there are any around here and 2. I know that we can’t afford it right now so self-teaching belly dance class in my living room is the way it has to be for now. I still have the Yoga class that I went to and that is only $8 for an hour and a half. Hopefully I will be going to that come Thursday but since Chris and I are only working off of one car right now and Thursday is also the night that he has band practice I don’t know if I will be able to go.

I am still trying to get out and meet people. I have met some of the SG girls and Molly said that she wanted to get coffee some time this week, we will see. The other group that I am tentatively a part of I have yet to actually meet any of them. There is a meetup scheduled for Wednesday night at the mall…. but I don’t know. They are probably going to meet at the food court and we don’t have the money to for me to get something from there so I don’t know that there is any point to me going. Chris doesn’t get paid for another week and we are kinda tight on money right now so I don’t know. I do know that I need to get a job…. UGH!

I have put in some applications around here but so far nothing. I did get a hit on the babysitter site that I am a part of but I want to talk about it with Chris first. The job that I really want and applied for I haven’t heard back from yet so I am thinking that I am going to have to call the mom and ask her directly about it. I don’t know. I really don’t want to work retail again and working food/serving is out of the question so I don’t know…. I think I might have to settle for retail until I finish school. I started going over my application again for that so we will see what happens. I hope that I get in because I really need to finish school though I don’t know how I am going to pay for it. If I do get in the commute is about an hour each way so I don’t know how I would be able to work unless I got a job around there and just stayed up there and then came home after. There is so much that is up in the air right now and that is driving me nuts! I know that once Chris and I get more stable finacially I will be able to relax a little bit more, but until then….. I don’t know.

I think I might apply at the book store, the pet store in person, some of the stores in the mall, and some of the little shops that are here and there. Target and Walmart are my last choices…. so if it does become that desperate then I guess I will have to apply there. Ugh… I hate money and the fact that I can never seem to have enough of it.

Chris is getting ready to go TDY to OK for 5 days. I don’t know what I am going to do short of apply since I will have the car.

I applied for a new social security card with my name change so hopefully that comes in the mail soon.

There is still so much to do and I feel like I am falling behind. I guess I should go start dinner…. only a little over an hour and a half til Chris gets home. And since we both went to bed around 7 last night since I had such a horrible headache…. we are both hungry.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life