this is who I am

So I guess its time for another update. Chris and I are doing great… we had a little tiff last night I guess you could say but neither of us really got into a fight… it was more like Chris was really frustrated and things just weren’t going his way and he was being really moody. I went to bed without him last night and it sucked but in a way it was good to know that I can because in 2 weeks, less then that even, he will be gone for 2 weeks for a class for the Army and I will be home by myself…. waiting like a good Army wife does. *sigh*

I am worried about this class but I am trying to keep a handle on my worry…. and I’m worried because this class may lead to him getting deployed and yeah I know that he doesn’t really mind getting deployed and yeah that hurts a little because I wish he wanted to stay home with me no matter what, but that is not the life that we are living so I am just going to have to grin and bear it. I think that I have kept a good lock on my feelings about it all… I know that Chris worries about me and I know that he doesn’t want me to be upset and besides… i will be living my life this way for a while to come so I might as well get used to it now.

I have started driving around and getting used to the town. I found the post office today so that is always a plus. I still haven’t gotten my name changed yet and there is a lot that has to go along with that which I don’t want to get into right now.

I am settling into the housewife thing…. cooking, cleaning, laundry… all the good stuff. Its almost fun in a way. I like being able to clean and see how nice the place looks after I am done. I washed the bathroom today and I couldn’t believe how much cleaner it was after some Magic Eraser power lol. I love those things.

Tomorrow I am meeting some of the SG girls. I am really excited… it will be nice to have some girlfriends to talk to that don’t live 8 hours away. I don’t really know anyone here so it will be nice to have friends. I’m not starved for the friendship though, I just think that knowing some more people would be nice. Chris is a bit weary about it, but with good reason, so I am going to take the friend thing slow. I’m sure that once I find a job and then get back into school I will have a lot more friends so I don’t mind going slow for now. Being an Army wife is kinda like being in a sorority… it a lot of gossip and popularity and I don’t want to get sucked in. I am just proud to be an Army wife, I am so proud of my husband, my soldier, my hero and I don’t need to show off or throw that around in peoples faces.

I have thought about joining the FRG but I don’t know about that now listening to some of the people talk around here so I am going to give the SG girls and the Young Army Wives meetup a try before I look for friends elsewhere.

Hmmm…. other updates….. Chris and I are kinda trying to get pregnant…. so send us some baby dust. We aren’t trying hardcore, just seeing what happens naturally, but in the back of my mind I have this fear that I can’t get pregnant so hopefully we get pregnant some time this year, we are in no real rush.

Ummm….. Ally and Eric will be here in about 2 weeks… just missing Chris since he will be at that class…. SG meetup at Coldstone tomorrow…. yeah… thats all I got.

… don’t be afraid, sometimes they come true! … music is my life