its all still amazing

Before I get into my entry for the day lets take this time to wish all the Mums out there a

I wish that I could celebrate Mother’s Day but I don’t have a baby yet…. maybe in the next year or two I will. I think that my mum had a good mother’s day. We kinda celebrated yesterday and combined it with my father’s birthday which was May 9th so all in all it was pretty good. My back almost gave out because I was up all day doing this or that and then cooking on top of it but it is back to its normal everyday dull pain so I’m sure that I’m fine.

I have been neglecting my diary but I have been so busy with work stuff that I just haven’t really had the time to write. Well that and I started packing the other day and trying to get things in order. I need to get back on track with my list…. lets go grab that…

Find someone to move my crap to North Carolina (I think we found someone)
Get Aurora fixed
Get Aurora and Riku caught up at the vet and get a copy of their records to take with me
Cancel my cell phone
Go through all my old clothes, keep what I want, sell what I can to Plato’s Closet, goodwill the rest
Go through everything in my closet and storage what needs it and pack the rest
Change my car over into my name
Apply to UNC at Pembroke
Take the Praxis
Tell WCN when my last day will be
Pay off all my outrageous medical bills (started)
Attempt to pay off the laptop (started)
Pack… pack… pack (started)
Pay off my Target card (started)
~~Go to Chris’s Army Formal~~
Go ice skating with my family before I leave
Clean out my car
Be done packing by the time Chris gets here
Get a good picture of my family to take with me
Enjoy some good sibling time before I leave
Get boxes to pack stuff for the move

Ok… so I haven’t made that much progress but atleast some things are in the works. Its a shame that so many of the things on that list require money and that is the one thing that I just don’t have and its been holding me back. It sucks. I had thought about picking up another job but Chris said no and I guess getting another job for only 2 months is kinda redic…. so I guess I will just have to continue to struggle with the 2. I need to start getting boxes… bleh better add that to the list.

Ok added.

Rob has been talking to me recently. His tour should be almost over now. I’m glad that he is done and going to be coming home soon. He asked me what I wanted for my birthday, I said I have no idea. He really doesn’t need to get me anything, but he insists on it. He went from not talking to me at all, to saying that he was starting to hate me, to now that he still loves me. He had deleted me from his myspace friends but recently tried adding me again. I haven’t added him yet because I don’t know if its a good idea. He is still blocked from here so I don’t know.

This random girl Brittany that caused drama between Rob and I, who I haven’t talked to in about 2 years now, just imed me last night to tell me that she was sorry for doing anything that hurt me. Ummmm ok. If that makes you feel better then fine…. I said something back to her later but got no response so whatever. I don’t need her drama in my life lol, she is still immature I have a feeling so whatever.

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#3366ff”>Chris and I were talking about when we are gettng married and he said that he wanted to get married the week that I move down there. I almost fell off my chair in excitement when he told me. It just makes me want to be down there with him that much more. I can’t wait til I can say that I am Chris’s wife….. I am so excited about it and yeah it may seem soon to some but this is the path for me and I have never been more sure of anything in my life. I am getting married once and its going to be to Chris and we are going to live happily ever after and I have no doubts about that. I just hope that I make a good housewife and in a couple years a good mother. I am so happy that I will be able to say that I was married before I turned 24. I hope that I can be pregnant before I turn 25 but only time will tell on that one.

There are about 40 more days til I move which almost means there are about 45 more days til I get married, til my name changes…. I am so excited!

Chris has been talking more and more about staying in the Army now. I haven’t really decided on how I feel about that… I can see the good and the bad of that decision so I don’t really know. We have a little bit more til we really need to decide about that though.

I guess I am just trying to focus on the moving. I can’t wait to be able to cook dinner for us, to have our own place, to see him everyday…. I am so excited about it. I am so happy that May is almost halfway over. Once the 21st hits then I have 1 month til the move. I know that I am going to be super busy so if I’m not on that much I apologize but I will be on a lot more after that and there will be plenty of pictures!

Its just crazy to think that I will be leaving this little room that I call home and moving into a 2 bedroom, 2 bathroom apartment. UGH…. the excitement is killing me lol

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