changing as things always do

Another day at work… another day passed. I sent Rob a letter today, I am ashamed to say that I haven’t sent him one in a while, but with my eye mess and then drama and work I just haven’t found the time. I haven’t heard anything from Rob today…. I worry about him.

Please pay no mind to me since right now I am working off of 2 hours of sleep, for some reason I couldn’t sleep last night.

I found out today that Aaron is in jail and he has been since Tuesday! What the hell?! I wish that he would of called me or something, because now that I know he isn’t mad or ignoring me I am free to worry. I don’t know when he is getting out or what is happening and I don’t know how to help him. I feel horrible about it. I worry about his job, what happened to his car, how his brother is doing…. damn it!

Army Chris (and from now on I will refer to him as such to seperate him from my ex Chris) and I had a long conversation yesterday. He is becoming an even great friend then I could have imagined. Its really nice to have someone from my past in my life again… like a new side to me that I never saw. And him being in the Army only helps us click better…. meaning that he understands my feelings about Rob and how hard this really is. We talked a lot about me last night and how I feel…. its nice. It was something that I once did with Amanda, but Army Chris understands it on a higher level because he is living it. He helps keep my irrational worrying in prospective.

My mum just came back from going to Jane’s, my step grandmum who passed away last Christmas. I wish that I could have gone but there was just no way for me to have. She brought back some things from the house, and money so that I can register for school… but I would much rather have Jane back. I miss her and I wish that I would have seen her more then once a year. I still feel bad about that.

I guess that is it for now… I am not in the mood to write any more.

Summer book list

1. Chicken Soup for the Military Wife’s Soul… 307 pages

2. Twilight (book 1) by Stephenie Meyer… 498 pages

3. New Moon (book 2) by Stephenie Meyer… 567 pages

4. Eclipse (book 3) by Stephenie Meyer… 629 pages

5. Echohawk by Lynda Durrant… 12 pages in

6. True Magick: A beginner’s guide by Amber K… 4 pages in

7. Blue is for Nightmares by Laurie Faria Stolarz… 6 pages in