another early morning
Right now Rashawn is sleeping on my lap… its 8am. Buffy is on and I still can’t get Edward and Bella from the 2 Stephenie Meyer books that I read. If you are ever looking for a powerful love story, a world that you want to disappear in… her books are it. In case you didn’t notice I sat up after work and read the last 300 and some odd pages of New Moon. I love being sucked into the world of their love… so powerful. It reminds me a lot of the power love that Rob and I share and I hope that its really that powerful and I am not just building it up into something different and more mystical then it really is in his absence.
My dreams have been running wild lately. Dreams of Rob and our future together… marriage, kids… dreams about forests and Edward and Bella… that book is making me lose my mind. I am about to read them both again… I don’t know if I can wait til August for Eclipse to come out. *sigh*
This baby sleeping soundly on my lap is so incredibly adorable. It really makes me want to have children of my own… but Rob is still in Iraq… neither of us has finished college and we have no money to get married and start a family with. Maybe I am reading too much into all of this… ugh I miss Rob so much. I can’t wait for next week… the parade hopefully and then 2 days after that it will be another month down in this horrid countdown til when I get to see the other half of my soul. I still have trouble sleeping… I still have crazy dreams… I still cry sometimes and I write him so many letters. Heh… I just sent him 2 yesterday and I know that I am going to write him one about this job since he doesn’t know that I got it yet.
I hate to think that my life is still going on while he is away. I hate that fact more then anything because he makes up so much of my life…. I can’t help but feel the empty hole that is left where he was and can’t be filled by anyone or anything but him….
But like I keep saying, like I promise him all the time… I am ok and I will be strong for him.
Summer book list
1. Chicken Soup for the Military Wife’s Soul… 307 pages
2. Twilight (book 1) by Stephenie Meyer… 498 pages
3. New Moon (book 2) by Stephenie Meyer… 567 pages
4. Eclipse (book 3) by Stephenie Meyer… waiting for the book release in August
5. Echohawk by Lynda Durrant… 12 pages in
I hate early mornings but 8am isn’t early for me anymore haha. It kind of is when i can’t sleep at night, but overall, it gets better everytime you do it.
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I like romance novels – I will keep her in mind when I am looking for my next novel. I recommend The Bronze Horseman. That has military connotations too – I’m glad youre enjoying your new job. Em
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Yea it’s like i used to have to wake up at like 4:30 to bring my man to the clinic for his daily fix, then drive the other way and drop him off at work and he’d have to be there for 7 and leaving in the dark and cold just i had to ABSOLUTELY FORCE myself to wake up. I hated it so much.
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i dont see my book on that list :(…lol
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Thanks, hopefully time moves fast! For you as well! It’s tough when the countdown is long, but seeing the number go down each time is great. Reading, working, family and friends is pretty much all you need. And keep your dreams and memories babe, it drives you nuts, but it keeps you two very close. Hugs
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**hugs**
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RYN:yeah john is just trying his best to piss me off. Have you ever tried contacting his SIL before? If not just introduce yourself and say you hope to get to know her better and how much you love rob and would never try hurt him.
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