I said my heart is sick of being..

*sad ramblings of a deranged girl*

drive another nail in. I gotta let you in. Im a fool if I let you in.Its this easy. I love you.

It is this hard because I shouldnt..

 must not.

SO I try to not too.

But your ghost creeps in. Taps my shoulder. IT settles in.

ANd like a fool I tend to your insecurities.

Making myself insecure.Lost into the oblivion of loving you from a distance.

Because you beautiful boy will only let me get so close.

SO should I give up?

Or play this sad game of lost hope.

SHould I try to find another or find no one.

Search no further.

Let myself kick my ass and reveal in my lonesome as I try activity of activity to forget you.

.Forgetting you is impossible.

Leaving you alone is insane.

SO I shall be this beautiful disaster.

And you shall be the most amazing creature I never can have.