you want it all..but thats not fair.

i relate.

*you werent there you never were,you want it all but that not fair..I gave you life I gave my all..you werent there you let me fall*

I am a bit of a mess. Wanna know why?

Tj is coming home.

Who is Tj? That would be my babies daddy.

Wanna know the history..Just search my Diary for Tj.

But the jist of it: the love of my life, WHo in short made me a hot crazy fucking mess and most of the time is the reason why I cant get a grip and have responsible reasonable relationships now.

Not only he is he coming home from Iraq..but he is going to be staying in Cape for awhile.

For the most part I love him..I hate what the marine corp turned him into. Most of the time I dont recognize him.

It really fucks with me to see him who he is when I know what he once was..and I shall be seeing him every day for…

A while.

The parts in this song where she talks about her ex husband remind me of Tj.

So does her song who knew though…

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cJmghwq7k2I&feature=related

you can go there to see it.

Im gonna go have a breakdown in my shower..Later..