not a happy entry.

Never Gonna let me Be:

Never gonna be your secret lover,kept under covers.

The one you secretly admire,But keep to yourself.

Never gonna be your perfect girl,The one that meets the parents,wears a smile and cooks you perfect meals.

But be blind to your lies.

Never gonna be your friend. Because you wont let me in. You got your walls up.

Maybe some time you might realize. Maybe some time you might see.

I am never gonna be your perfect girl.

But thats because you wont let me.

 

i know..Not cheerful. Being sick gives me a lot of time with my thoughts.

So I thought  I would share them.

Here is the whole of it.

I want some one that wants me as much as I want them..I know. This shouldnt be horribly hard. But you would be suprised.

I want a friend ship with a guy that exists before one in the morning..Or when ever it just happens to be convienent for them.

I am tired of being there for whomever and it not being returned.

I am just sick and tired..and a little pissed off.Whatever.

One of these times I am just not gonna be there when ever they need me, Cz I feel like that is how it goes. When I hurt or need some one they are nonexistant.

But im not for them.

Whatever.

Its impossible. People dont give a shit..Guess what.Niether do I .

Fuck yourself.