In my head..I found you there.

In my head I found you there.

Past the crying in my pillow I found you there.

I thought I could hide. I thought it was simple and you would just let go.

But some where inside you hold on to me.

YOu dig in you do not let go and I know.

Maybe I am just about doomed..When comes to me and you.

And I try hard to * just be friends*

With a simple plastic smile on my face.

With my hellos and how are yous..and discussions of the weather.

I still long for the feeling we had when we were together.

But I shall never go back you see..

I hated the way you made me belong..and wanted me to be..anyone but  me.

So I dance in lazy circles to the music in my head.

And I ignore the fact. I sealed a pact.

ANd I ignore this fact..Because it so easy.

YOu see. To let me be

Just the demented girl..you never see.