It be so much easier if you’d just..

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that covers it. I am not a happy girl today. I think I need some more sleep..Im gonna go to bed..again.

I have only been awake maybe six hours. and I dont like myself. I dont like my brain. I dont like much.

Well I do like one person. But besides that..

I just want someone to sleep with and not have to apoligize for this ugliness I feel inside.

I just want some one to say no sara. It is ok. I like you despite this feeling.

That is what I want. But instead I think I shall crawl into my bed.

GEnerally when I feel like this I escape. And I will. . Into my bed.

it is better then what I would normally do.

I miss you. You make me feel sane. You make the world stop spinning long enough that I dont feel dead inside.

Oh. No.

Time to sleep.

I am sorry. I feel icky.

I hope this in no way effects your day. It would of course be easier if you just hated me.Then this wouldnt affect you.

You could just go on. And let me be.

dont worry much. I have a refuge.Amongst my pillows and my blankets.

I wish I didnt wake up today.

SIarai

Ps. Why does Tj have to get to me so much?