February 6, 2006

He’s sorry..He is sorryshrugs Who cares.

* i love you so I am stupid*

………………………Yeah I Just Had to write that………………………..

Any way today was pretty uneventful. I woke up jumped on the trampoline, watched pulp fiction, Had me a bubble bath..did some thing.. then I had french toast that i made and butter scotch pudding.Then i painted some more on my abstract painting.Then i worked on my poetry again. Turns out my *eats black glass* Is not coming out the way I hoped. i think I hit writers block when i came to that. Right now I am having problems with my mental health. Uphill fight and I am not so sure I am going to win most of the time.

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*Tie me up. Throw me down. Make me feel anything but numb. Make me feel anything but sad.Make me feel.*

I wish you were here so I can talk to you until hours of the night. i wish you were here to say it will all be ok.I wish and nothing happens. Rediculous to wish.

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Anyway for those that dont know me I have a personality dissorder called DID. And I am having problems staying myself lately. I also have dissorder in which i see myself as if I am looking at myself and I dont realize it as me sometimes. Which can really fuck with a person.

*I love you and I am stupid*

SIarai