today’s haiku

You guys!!!!! Holy hell!!!! Turns out I CAN get swept away on a tide of passion! LOL. I can’t… LOL… I’m still marveling. It scares me, bumping into passion that strong, but it also gives me hope.

Thank you. I am trying to stay away from temptation. I hear exactly what you are saying, and agree. Unfortunately, I tend to sabotage because I am so ineffective at facing these issues head on, and temptation is the precursor to sabotage. I’m just waiting and watching. And I’m not afraid anymore and that just speaks volumes. As for Dancer… I think of the passion. I can’t help it. But I am resisting. Thankfully, I don’t have occasion to hear from him or see him. That’s awesome — I can just let it go. Now. If he truly is dangerous, he’ll come to me. Then I’m toast. But I don’t think he will. Can you hear the regret in my voice? I am trying very hard, Dearling. Very very hard. Thank you.

RYN: Can’t do it, Dearling! Can’t make it better with drugs of any kind. I made an appt with my regular doctor for thurs. He put me on the lexapro to begin with. I’m not sure what I want from him. Maybe just to tell him that I tried and have failed and.. I don’t even know. Just to tell him that I’m going crazy. No worries…I’m not going to let him give me any prescriptions. Maybe birth control. HA HA. Kiss the Mrs. for me. R

Thanks, Dearling. To you both. I am paying very very close attention to all of the things I am feeling right now — all of them. Be well and have a wonderful weekend!