One of the things that really frustrates me
Day seven and the grass is green!
So this entry covers more than one thing that frustrates me, but all are interrelated.
I was thinking in the shower how some people continually remind me that I have low-self esteem and need to work on it.
The fact is, I don’t. I’m quirky and very self-aware. So when I say “I suck at…” It’s because I do. The level I’m at may even be reasonably good; however, it’s not up to my standards.
Case in point, I owned my own business since I was 18. It was a huge success. When it came time to find a free internship to complete my PR degree, no one would hire me.
That hurt the ego, and not something I have mentioned too often.
Most people told me that it was lack of self-confidence and I needed to prepare more.
My answer was always an explanation of how my learning disabilities make things such as academics and interviews extremely challenging.
“That’s just an excuse,” is the general reply.
My cooking skills are well above average. Sometimes I fail and get mad or attempt a new dish and it fails. People seem to take my frustrations as a lack of self-confidence.
I have no idea telling people what I’m good at and what areas are a weakness. Somehow, because I know; due to brain damage, that my ability to recall numbers is terrible. For whatever reason, that factual statement; backed up by many tests, is seen as “an excuse” or “not trying”.
Being an introvert doesn’t help the perception.
One of my favourite things is when people tell me I’m “agoraphobic” because I don’t like to leave my house.
First, I’m not afraid to leave my house which is a huge difference.
Secondly, I’m lazy which is why I make about 95% of my purchases online.
Why would I spend time running from store to store shopping, looking for items that are sold out. No one likes having to deal with lineups and busy malls.
I avoid all that, and it’s incredibly easy to find the best prices on items. To me it makes sense.
The only downfall is that I don’t always get the item the same day. Most things arrive within two days.
Today overall was quiet. I got a lot of server maintenance done and backed up some stuff on external drives. I have two more coming in a few days. This way there will be lots of extra space, and they should initialise as fast or faster than the one I just replaced.
I have to call my ISP to fix an issue with a sudden dynamic address problem.
That’s all for now.
MJG
“for I have sworn upon the altar of God eternal hostility against every form of tyranny over the mind of man.” ~ Thomas Jefferson
Kudos to you, for really knowing who(m) you are, and your abilities or lack thereof — are NOT because you’re lazy, or don’t want to “try harder.” I hate when people jump to conclusions without knowing anything factual about the person. It’s so unfair and unjust. I am also not agoraphobic, but I don’t always want to go out in public. I don’t mind going outside in my apartment complex and seeing people or chatting. But some days I don’t want to let the world into my space.
I’m sorry, I forgot to say, the grass is incredible! Is Medhia eating it now? :*)
@butterfly4him I’m waiting a few more days. I want to make sure it’s growing well. Generally it’s 10 days from germination to harvest.
@axalotal : Oh, okay. :*) t.y. I want to get some and grow it for my daughter & grandkids’ cats. Then I’ll bring it to them as a surprise. lol.
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Your kitty is going to love that wheat grass!
@M She does! She had a pot of it before but for some reason the grass died rather quickly. It’s really helped her feel a little better.
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My daughter is having the same problem with an internship. She’s got all four years and more than enough credits done but cannot get her degree until she completes 800 hours of internship and no one will give her a chance. She’s completely demoralised after almost a year of looking and is working at a gas station instead of starting her career.
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