questioning gravity

I am so puzzled how a thing like gravity exists. Apparently, every time you take a step, youre free falling with one foot in the air. And there is this thing. This force. You cant see it. But the scientists say that its there?

What if it is all a dream? What if it is all lies?

What makes something exist? Is it other peoples’ perception of it?

I sneezed loudly, as I often do. And the man in front of me, which happened to be my ta from last semester, turned around and with a sweet dimple on the side of his smile said "bless you." I smiled kindly and replied with a thank you. In that moment i existed. He recognized that there i was in the back of him. I am the sneeze girl for him.

If i never sneezed, my being would have been unnoticed.

Its kind of like the old, tree falls in the woods. Do we hear it? Or do we not?

And I spent 2 hours today learning about gravity and its power. It is because of gravity, we can pee and it goes where we want it to. What if it didnt fall? What if it flew? Or sneezes! cooties everywhere. How about furniture? We wouldnt need furniture if we didnt have gravity.

gravity gravity gravity

its no wonder, i never really liked physics.

All these forces. I cant feel them. I cant see them. They might be there, but I cant grasp them. I cant seem to comprehend that my pee could fly in the air or that nothing can ever be stable.

There is a guy that went out of space for a few months and coming back, the gravity was so difficult for him to handle, he could barely stand up. He was paralyzed. If there is such a strong force acting on us, why dont we feel it?

Ive sort of always wanted to an astronaut, if anything just to experience free gravity.

Can you imagine being confined in a small place for 3 years with the same people? Who would you take on your space travels? Who could you withstand for long periods of time in the smallest of spaces?

But. Yeah. Gravity.

I can understand how there must be something that can make things stick. but. I wish i had better proof. I wish i could reach my hand out and grasp gravity, you know?

Umm.

Yeah.

This entry has been brought to you by a very tired Elina who did not get much sleep last night and had her first two classes, one of which was called Man in Space and oddly enough Im in love with the class. Who knew this girl could be interested in something other than the brain?

In other news, I have way too much stuff. Im exhausted from cleaning it all up. And im kind of feeling comfortably lonely. Liz is still in Argentina. Marina was tired and fell asleep at 6pm. Im amazed at how she can do that.

I wish I could go to bed like that. Poetry readings over skype [teehee] and random talk with marina through the wall, kept me up last night.

but yeah. here i am. Alone on a tuesday night. First day of my last semester at college.

Going to take a shower and eat dinner, then make a facial mask, curl up with a movie & tea and go to sleep early.

I want to escape the present sometimes, just so that I wouldnt have to face the question of tomorrow. [im so scared]