And *POOF* I show up!!

Hey there everyone. It has been FOREVER since I have written anything in here. It has been so crazy with me, the kids, and with Pat. So here we go with all that has been going on.

They are doing WONDERFULLY. They had there 2nd well child check on August 30. Riley now weighs 10lbs 6oz and is 23 inches long. Owen now weighs 10lbs 5oz and is 22 inches long. They are in the curve where they should have been at birth if they went full term. Everything is developing normally and doing great. Owen also had his circ. on September 5th. We had to wait for so long seeing he was 6 weeks early and his penis was too small and none of the doctors clamps would fit. He did wonderfully. The only time he cried was when they gave him the anesthesia. The parts that should have “hurt” he just layed there and sucked on his pacifier. Pat was in the room seeing, in my opinion, a circ. is more of a father/son thing than a mother/son thing, so I sat out in the waiting room with Riley and fed her. He’s been doing good since then. It hasn’t really bothered him. The only time it has bothered him was Friday, but EVERYTHING bothered him seeing it was 95 degrees and humid. He is also trying so hard to roll over. Makes me sad and proud all at the same time. My little boy is growing up everyday. Riley on the other hand, is a little dancer. Her left leg never stops moving. She is ALWAYS moving and dancing. She is such a laid back baby. Doesn’t really cry, doesn’t get fussy when Owen gets fed first…she just chills out because she knows she won’t be forgotten. Unlike Owen, who proceeds to scream if he doesn’t get fed ASAP. He freaks out. So all in all they are wonderful. Smiley happy babies!!

I am, well alive. My mother just presented me with a new bill to live at her house with the kids. She wants $500 by the first of October. I can’t come up with that. I mean this bill was crazy. She wants to charge me for the cable, which is in MY name, the land line phone which I don’t use because I have my cell phone, and she wants me to pay to use the laundry soap that I already paid for, my soap, shampoo, condition and all the rest of my personal hygiene products that I have already paid for. So she told me I either have to pay that, or get out and go to the Welfare seeing on the 20th I’ll be 21. So the kids and I have no real place to go. So right now they are at my daddy’s until I get someplace for us to go. Which Pat and I think we have…that’ll come later in the entry. My mother has also grown the balls to tell me that she is raising my children and I am not taking responsible when it comes to them because I don’t have a job yet. My mother and I are not on speaking terms right now. Other than that, I am alright.

Pat and I are doing better. He has gone out to find a second job so I can stay home with Riley and Owen. He has an interview Monday. We are trying VERY VERY VERY hard to keep the house…but seeing Pat is 3,500 dollars behind in the mortgage I don’t see that happening. So he has to call the bank on Monday to see if they will put that at the end of our mortgage and add on 2 more years. In the mean time, Pat and I are going to be…I hate to say it…moving in with his mother so we can get our finances together plus we know we have a place to take the babies that is livable. There is hot water, heat, air, and a comfortable place to sleep. I’m not too thrilled about it, but I don’t have a choice. The babies can’t stay at the house seeing there is no heat or anything. The only thing that we have is electric. So…this living situation has put more stress on Pat and I. [I don’t want to be judged by the difficulties Pat and I are having. I don’t want to hear “well if you didn’t have kids…” or “you’re so selfish to have kids…” We are doing our best and making sacrifices so we can have a safe place for them to go. Right now they’re with my dad, safe and sound. We miss them terribly, but this is for the best. We have to move mine, the babies, and Pats stuff over to the apartment and put the big things in storage.] Other than that we’re good. We intend on taking some pictures of him, the babies, and myself soon. When that happens I’ll post ’em.

Hmm…I think that is it for the moment. I’ll try and update sooner than a month or so later. I can’t promise anything, but I’ll try. Love you all. Until next time…toodles.

♥ Amanda

.The Angel.