Small resolutions come in big ways!!
…and if you could put dumb in a shot glass I’m just a lush who’s has one too many in me…
Well things are almost better. Things between Pat’s mom and I are back to normal. She came up and asked me if something was wrong, I lied, but after I said no we’ve been fine. We watched movies together, had dinner, and just hung out all day.
Now things with Pat and I. He really upset me today. I asked him last night before I went to sleep if he’d go with me to pay my car insurance this morning and he said “if I can get up.” Are you serious?! Anyways, I stayed up until about 2 this morning which is rather bad seeing on Tuesday’s and Thrusday’s I have to be up at 7:15 to get ready to go to my class. So stupid me got 5 hours of sleep. Anyways, Pat said he wasn’t gonna be up for much longer which I was like alright, maybe we’ll go to bed together….HA!! What a fucking laugh!! He came into the room, turned the big over head light on which automatically woke me up out of a dead sleep, I moved over and I sat up enough to look at the clock. And what does the clock say….6:00!! He’s gotten into the habit to go to bed about an hour before I have to get up and then sleep all day until I get him up for work. So I went and just did my car insurance alone. I got home and he was still sleeping. By this time I was pissed off more than yesterday. Had to pay my car insurance with my moms money, my soon-to-be husband can’t get the fuck up, and I’m dead ass tired. Anyways, I called my old boss to tell her I was coming to drop off my uniforms and key passes so I could get my final pay check. I made sure I made so much fucking noise!! After I got my uniforms around, I said before slamming the bedroom door “must be fucking nice to be able to go to bed at 6 in the morning and sleep all fucking day!!” I know he heard me because he woke up. I left and didn’t get back until 2:35. Didn’t say a damn word to him, wouldn’t even look at him. I have to go and get him in about a half an hour. I’m just sick of arguing about the same thing over and over. It’s the only thing we have an issue with. I think what I am going to do is just go get him and come home and pass out. Which won’t solve anything…but…who knows. However, through all the bullshit we go through, I love the man unconditionally. I can’t wait to be his wife. The weird thing though, no matter what he does or what we disagree about I can never stay mad at him. I signed on my Yahoo Messanger and last night he sent me a message while I was sleeping.
*-*Patrick*-* (10/3/2006 12:05:45 AM): i love u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Stuff like that just makes me not be mad at him. I’m such a softy!!
Hmm, what else? Class was boring as hell. I was falling asleep. It’s my Career Exploration class that I had today, and at 8 in the morning he’s trying to teach us about resumes!! Good luck.
My eyes feel so heavy right now. I would love to just crash. I did at my mom’s today. I was waiting for her to ask her a question, I layed on her couch at 1 and then I looked at the clock again it was 1:36 and my mom was right at the door. I almost fell asleep again on Pat’s moms bed and on the couch!! I’m doing everything I can to stay awake. It works for so long them poof!! I’m ready to fall over again.
Tomorrow entails me going to English, Effective Reading, and Intro. to College Studies. Thank god tomorrows Wednesday. Only 2 more days and then I can just chill and just sleep….and spend time with Pat.
Anyways, I’m gonna go for now…until next time!! Toodles!!
♥ A