Working with my new life….
So I am officailly moved in to Pat’s. Can we say weird…just a little…? I’ve gotten use to going to my mothers and then coming here after he got out of work. Now I just come here when I get out of work. I wake up with him daily…sort of. He normally wakes up before I but still. I go to bed with him nightly, am always with him even if I am going to the store. I won’t leave the house without him.
I just can’t figure it out how things ended up like this. He told me one day, while we were texting back and forth, that he always liked me but didn’t expect this. I am so crazy in love with this kid. I can’t describe in words what I feel for him. I have only felt like this one time before this. And as you all know, that was with Pete. After Pete pretty much killed and destroyed my heart, I honestly thought I wouldn’t feel like that again. I can finally wake up in the morning and not think of him. It took me a little over 2 years to end that feeling. That feeling that when I wake up, it eats away at me wondering why him and I didn’t work. I’d find myself talking about him with my at the time currents. I felt guilty for doing so, but they want me to be honest so I gave it to them. But now I can go to bed, I can wake up, and I function through out the day without a thought of him entering my mind. And for me to be able to do that is the greatest achievement I could accomplish in my personal life. For a long time I thought I was destined to live my life wondering what if. What if I did this? What if he did that? No more. I just can’t express more than what I just wrote how good that makes me feel. To not have that linger on my heart, soul and mind feels like the weight of the world has been lifted. And I can only thank one person for helping lift that from me. And that’s Pat. Even though he’s not aware of what he did.
Anyways, work has been a little less stressful. I haven’t been as mad when I get there as I have been. Crazy as that sounds seeing that I absolutely hate that place with a passion. Andrea and I have been getting along lately too. Which for me to get along with her is rather odd seeing she DRIVES ME ABSOLUTELY INSANE!! The other day at work she called me at 6:30 and talked to me until 7:30…which was straight through my break. [My break is at 7.] We just talked about work and just stuff we could do to make it less stressful for all of us. Then I talked to Jaime last night about what has been going on with me. I got a new picture of her son. He’s so damn cute. Found out that I went to school with Tanya…which is what I thought. Oh my, this is funny. I think our fryer is possessed. I despise using it. The reason behind that is Monday when I worked they put new oil in it. I had it set at 375 degress as I normally do. I got an order for a large fry. No biggie. I did it and I know that after I fill that kind of order it takes a few seconds for the oil to settle back down. Well needless to say, it didn’t settle down. It kept bubbling. At first not bad, but then it got out of control. The little bubbles turned into a full force boil. It started crackling and popping. Oil was spitting out every where. I even had foam. I thought it was going to over flow. So I turned it off. It calmed down and then did it again…the whole deal…while being OFF!! I called my manager and told her I wasn’t using it for the rest of my shift. I opened the door to the fryer and it stopped. I still didn’t use it. But it was crazy as hell.
Well I’m just rambling at the moment. It’s 1:51 in the morning. I’m pretty much just writing stuff now that pops out of my head.
Still working with dealing with the new life that I have. And all the freedom that goes with it. But from what I’ve seen so far, I love it.
With that said I think I am going to end this for now. Until next time…PLCG!!
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