“In all do time, I promise.”

Right Now[Clock Says]: 9:47pm
[Expensive Fabrics]: Black pants and black Aeropostale shirt
[Wash It All Down]: Nothing
[Swallow It All]: Nothing
[Feeling]: Sleepy
[Inside Your Head]: Sean
[Chatting It Up]: Jessie
[Ear Candy]: “I Just Want Your Company” -Linkin Park
[Wish Upon A Star]: Sean to call
The Writing On The Wall:Hey there everyone. It’s a new entry but I am going to be working off of my previous entrys. So yeah, I went and talked to Kara that night like it said and I talked to her about Sean. The main thing that I wanted to ask her was what is his relationship status?…like how many girlfriends and stuff like that. She said that she has never seen him with a girlfriend for the past 3 years of knowing him. She said that when he lived up in Buffalo that he was in love with the girl and she broke his heart. Then there is this other girl Rachel who he likes one day and then doesn’t the next. She said that she has never seen him kiss a girl as well. I felt so good to hear her say that. To know that he doesn’t just kiss girls and he did me made me go on cloud 9. She also said that “his choice of bitches aren’t the greatest.” Plus if I am in anyways crazy I better stop now,and that he needs a “normal” girlfriend. She also said that if he did have a normal girlfriend he’d be ok. Anyways, it got to be the time for Sean to come in and when he did he was just all pissy. I just didn’t know what to do. I didn’t want to speak because he was just so pissy. He was getting really pissed at Kara too. He feels she doesn’t do her job and that she leaves it all for him. He gets really sick of it and stresses out. Anyways, her boyfriend Jason came and she left which left me with Sean. He was just so irritated with everything. I said nothing until he said something to me. He appologized for being an ass hold but he was just not happy, and that it was more a less my decision if I stayed there. He said that I could stay and watch him be bitchy or leave. Even though it killed me to do so, I decided to leave and just give him space. I told him that I was going to leave and to have him call me later. He said he would, so I went home and played on my computer for a little while and then I went to sleep. No call from him. So I called him last night around 1:15ish and he didn’t answer. I didn’t leave a voicemail, I just hung up. He didn’t call back either. He’s so busy so I understand and I know he isn’t fucking with me. I want to call him tonight but I don’t want to make him feel like I am stalking him. I just miss him, that’s all. I just want to be able to see him outside of work, but who knows.

Oh, back to when I talked to Kara at the store, the guy Jesse that she was talking about came in. He talked to me a little and I realized who he was. Kara said that all he kept saying was that I was nice. I thought it was funny.

I think though I am going to leave Sean alone for a few days, unless Kara says otherwise. I plan on calling him either Thursday or Friday. I have to find out when he works again.

Anyways, just wanted to stick that in here…I am gonna go. I want a cigarette. PLCG!!

-A*