Criminal???…*edited*

Right Now[Tick Tock]: 4:05pm

[Gettin Hot in Here]: Shorts and a T-shirt

[Sippin’]: Nothing

[So Sensitive]: Really good…in love…

[Muchin’]: Nothing yet…mommy‘s making dinner

[Inside My Head]: I miss you

[Dreaming so Silently]: To start my life with you

[So Popular]: Mommy

[Ear Candy]: “The Nightmare Before Christmas”

The EntryHey there everyone…another entry…that makes 3 in a row. We I forgot something from yesterday‘s entry and I have stuff to write about today. Well Monday night when I stayed with John, after we made love, he asked me something. I was about to fall asleep and he said that he had to ask me something before I went to sleep. He said this: “I know I don‘t have a ring right now, but , will you marry me?” I said yes!! Just wanted to let you all know seeing that I forgot to stick it in yesterday‘s entry!!

On to today. I came home yesterday and just died on the couch after I wrote. I was so tired. I ended sleeping until 6:30 on the couch but when I woke up I was so hot and sweaty. It was really gross. I got up and filed out the application that John‘s dad gave to me. Then I went and took a bath/shower. It felt good to sit and relax in the bathtub. I took a bubble bath and the bubbles that I used smell like Gardena’s. Then after my shower John called so I talked to him for a minute and I told him that I was getting ready to come up and see him at work. While I was getting dressed Matt and Jason called. I didn’t answer them, seeing I was busy. Jason left me a voicemail but Matt called twice when I was at the house, once when I was up at John’s work and again when John and I got home. I ended up turning the phone off cause I really didn’t want to talk to anyone. Anyways, I didn’t stay up there the whole time. Leah and I went to McDonalds and got some double cheeseburgers. I had a really big craving for them. Then I went to Leah’s house for a bit where Heidi was packing Justin’s stuff for Albany. He went to his in patient drug rehab today. He’s going to be in Albany for 30 days or more. Then John called me at 12:30 to tell me he was coming to get me so we could go home.

We got to his house and when we up to his room. We started watching “Napoleon Dynamite” where things ended up escalating. I swear to go God, John and I have been having sex like rabbits. Crazy. We went down to ‘our place’ and had sex on the floor. He almost climaxed last night. For some reason he would get so close and then it wouldn’t happen. After that we went back upstairs and went to bed. I started to cry because I still think it’s me. I think that I am not doing something right and that’s why he can’t get off. He reassured me so many times but I still feel like it’s me. I cried a little me and he was like “Baby don’t cry. It’s not you I promise, it’s me. I’ve always been like this.” Then we went to bed. Got up this morning and I remember the notes that I got from yesterday’s entry about teasing him. So I did…again, nothing happened. I am getting so frustrated with this whole situation. I don‘t know.

Anyways, off of John for a moment. Tonight is court for that unlawful dealing to a child thing. Mom wants to me to talk to the D.A and she wants to leave at 6. My court time is at 7. She‘s driving me crazy. I didn‘t realize that today was the day until I looked in the mirror while I was brushing my hair at John‘s. Just a little nervous.

Hmm, I think that is it for the moment. I will update this one later letting you know what happened in court. PLCG!!

-A*
Edit…10:44pm
Ok so I went to court. I left there in tears. The judge arrained it and I have to go back on November 9th at 7. I have to find a lawyer as well. The judge said that if I said I was guilty tonight I would have been charged as a criminal and then I would have to put down on all job applications that I was a convicted criminal. So yeah, that’s how that went.

Flo sent me text message when I got home as well say: “So I hear that you broke up with Matt and now you are seeing his friend Jason.” I called her right on the spot and put shit straight. Then I called Jason and flipped out. Matt went and told his mother that I left him for Jason. Matt’s mother also said that if I ever came back up there I couldn’t get a room at the Ramada because I left her son, who PHYSICALLY hurt me…PLEASE!?! This women doesn’t even fucking know me.

Anyways, I am going to end this edit here. It’s 10:48 and Lee’s here and I am also waiting for John to get out of work at 12:30. He’s coming to get me and we are going back to his house for a little while then I’ll be home.

OH, before I leave…I have an interview tomorrow with Applebees at 3. I completely forgot about it.

Anyways, I am really going this time…tomorrow I start my search for a lawyer. Yay…

-A*

 

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