You can count on me

Hey there everyone. It has been so long since I put in a real word entry. So much has been going on lately. Let’s start with my fabulous job. Well I called in the other day. I got so pissed off that I just didn’t care. What happened was Jon and Sami where still over at Subway power washing the floors when Sean came in at 11:38. He started is cigarette count but then Jon came over and was like “Bobo let’s go have a smoke now!” Sean left in the middle of his count. The count didn’t get done until 12:36. I was trying to do my paper and run his drawer as well. Then his phone rang and he went outside and talked on the fucking thing for a half an hour. Stick didn’t get stuck until 12:46. I was so mad that I waited for him to get back in, and punched out. I didn’t care. After that it’s been alright I guess. Fred came back last night. Sean hasn’t been bad. I kissed him on the cheek the other night. I was blowing on his cheek making him laugh. It was great. On top of that I failed my customer service sting. Apparently I didn’t say anything to the person and I didn’t have my name tag on which I find that hard to believe because I never take it off and I always say hello to the person. Didn’t bitch too much but at least now I know that they are trying to make it so I can move up to the next color. But they also scheduled in in the middle of my 10 day stretch of 4-12:30 shifts. It was day 7 and I was stressing really bad, plus it was on a Sunday at 8:30. Now I have to pass 2 customer service stings to even think about going to Orange.

Hmm, Dan called me the other night for a “booty call.” I don’t know who the fuck he thinks he is to call me at like 2 in the morning asking me that shit. The new stuff that I found out is that he is going to be marrying the “wifey”…his baby’s mama!! Even though he said he won’t be happy he will be doing things “properly.” Oh fucking please!!What the fuck ever.

John is good. I went and seen him last night for the first time in like a week and a half. Our schedules are all messed up right now we barely see each other and get to spend time with one another. I hope this won’t effect us. Well mainly me and make me grow distant from him because I rarely see him now. Right now, no one knows about him and I getting back together and for the moment I want it that way.

Oh I got some great news to tell you. The STATE TROOPERS came and took Dan away on Saturday along with his Probation Officer. Right now he’s in an Alcoholic Crisis Center. Apparently they have been watching him for a long time. They know what my car looks like, they know what mom’s car looks like, they know my license plate and they know mom’s. Anyways, they busted in Saturday afternoon at about 3:30. Right after I got out of work. Anyways, he’s in ACC for up to 3-14 days. Rick, his Probation officer, is going to making out a violation form and 10 to 1 he will be back in jail. About fucking time someone put at stop to my never ending nightmare. Now I can walk around peacefully in my house, eat normally, sleep normally and not worry about him being here.

My step-mom Maria (dad’s 2nd wife) called me. We know what my sister Kari is having. She is having a girl and the name she picked out was Stacy Leanne. I was so happy to learn that I am going to be having a neice. I don’t know what Rachel is having. I have to call her and find out.

Well I have this rather growing collection of Tinkerbell stuff now. It’s crazy on how big this obsession is becoming. At this moment, I have 2 PJ outfits, a blanket, a key chain, 2 things of paper, a book mark, a pen, 2 purses, a wallet and a pair of socks. Quite sick don’t you think. Just had to mention that.

I went and got my new perscription for my birth control last night. I went and seen how much that one was going to cost me and it is at a much more affordable amount for me. Since my doctor wrote me a perscription for Orthotricycolin Lo the first time, I found out that was going to cost me $135 to fill. This new one they gave me is $30 to fill. It’s a generic brand but I don’t really care. Just as long as it does the same thing as the expensive one I’m happy.

Gordon came into the store yesterday. And who called him while he was in the store…PETE!! I haven’t talked to him in so long. I miss him so much. If anything I want to talk to him. He is my true love. I don’t mean to sound like John isn’t the one that I love but people just have to understand that Pete and I had a 2 year relationship of love and happiness. I swear to you, some how he’ll be back in my life. And if I could turn back time, I think I would. That would mean I wouldn’t have found John, but I could be with Pete. Be happy as I was with him. When I was with him, everyday was a new adventure. I felt like I was walking on a cloud. That was daily. The passion never faded between him and I. There was everything and then some with him and I. I just had to be such a fucking idiot and asked him the question that I asked him. I get so scared th

at he will come in the store one day. I won’t know what to do if he does. I will cry and be so happy all at the same time. Just to see him would make me so happy. I just want him to know that I would do anything to take away all the hurt that I caused him. *sigh* I also heard the song “Songs About Rain” by Gary Allen at John’s house last night. I just closed my eyes and went back in time. That song was playing when we woke the first night that I spent the night with him, along with the song “Watch The Wind Blow By” by Tim McGraw. I am still not over him and I don’t think I ever will be.

I got me a new cell phone. My other one died. All it would do is my text messages and vibrate. Other than that it did nothing. So I went and got me a Motorola V220 2 weeks ago. $101 it cost me. I am very happy with it.

Mom goes in for surgery tomorrow. We have to be there by 8 since the surgery is being done at 10 or something stupid like that.

Well I think that’s it for this entry. I will try and update more than every 2 weeks. Just so much has gone on it’s crazy over here. PLCG!!

-A*

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