These dreams go on when I close my eyes….

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Tic Toc- 2:09am

Outfit- Work clothes

Sippin- Raspberry blue Slushie

Missin- John

Music- Not a damn thing

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Hey everyone. How’s it going? Not too bad over here. As you can see I have changed my layout once again. This is twice I’ve changed it, IN ONE DAY. I just get bored really quick. Anyways, the whole purpose to why I am writing this entry is to ask questions. Ok, last night I ended up dreaming of one of my co-workers last night, Sean. I dreamt that we ended up kissing and some how dating. I don’t know where we were, but it all started with my crawling through this run down how to get away from these killers. Some how Sean going in the picture and saved me. I know right, you’d think it would be John to be the one who would save me, but no it was Sean. Can’t remember what happened, but all I remember at that moment in my dream, and what is very clear in my head was me and his kissing. And quite passionatley if I may add. Then he ended up cutting all his hair off and turning into the ‘typical’ preppy looking kid. Then he disappeared. Where to I have no idea. The rest of the dream kept playing over though. Me running away from these killers. Now what I want to know is, are dreams something that you keep stored in your head because you can’t face them when you are in a conscious state of mind? Is my subconsence playing things that I can’t act out in reality? In a way teasing me? I just found it odd. And tonight when he came it to work, I felt really weird around him. I almost felt like he knew I had dreamt about him. Maybe I like Sean and don’t want to admit it, because in doing so would admit that I was some sort of a slut and can’t make up my mind in what I want to do. I mean don’t get me wrong, I adore John. Hell I love the kid to death and it kills me to know that I am dreaming about someone else and not him. When he reads this he’s going to be ever more hurt and confused but I have got to just let all of this out or I won’t be able to sleep tonight. I don’t know, maybe I am reading way too much into this.

Well listen, I am going to follow up on this entry hopefully tomorrow. It’s 2 in the morning and I am shivering. It’s fuckin like 75 degrees out and I am shivering. Oye!! PLCG!!

-A*