.X. DANCE in THE rain .X.

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Well hey everyone, its been awhile since I’ve written in this thinger. It’s been so busy it’s crazy. Well lets see lets start with this weekend. 
Friday nothing too much happened that day. I was just so happy to get out of school. B came out this weekend.  Leah came and she was talking to me through my window and she wanted me to go for a ride with her. I went and that was one giant MISTAKE! I met Mike. We went for a short ride and we talked about Chris, which is her ex-boyfriend that has this HUGE obsession with me it‘s sick!! Then I got home and called Pete. We talked for awhile and he told me that he was going to come and get my Saturday night!! Then I went to bed at about 2:00 in the morning. Saturday everyone was in a rush that day. We celebrated Courtney‘s 5th birthday. So mom had to go and get the cake, we had to clean up, then she had to run B to Helena’s house for Michael‘s birthday thinger. So he left that night. So didn’t Dan cause he didn’t want to be here when my family came over. The family came over and then at 3:15 the phone rings. It was NATE!! I was shocked to all hell. I didn’t know what to do or say. But I didn’t want to be rude and talk on the phone when the family was over so I told him to call me back in an hour, which he did. He called me at EXACTLY 4:15. I was shocked. Courtney‘s party was nice. I love seeing my family. Anyways, I was talking to Nate and he told me that him and the girlfriend are having issues. And go figure, he calls me!! Then I flat out asked him if he loved her and he said a little. Then I asked him if he saw it worth it and he said no, then I said not at the time being cause I knew he was going to say no. I told him to look at the relationship as a whole and then base it on if it was worth it and he STILL said no. Then he had to go and he told me he‘d call me later. Then I went for a walk. I called my father and lit into him like no tomorrow. I just don’t want to go there. Then I called Leah and I went for another ride with her cause I was so frustrated I didn’t care what happened to me. Mike was with us. Come to find out he knows Nate. I got to thinking if he was the same Mike that called when I was there when we were dating and asked him to come over and get stoned with him cause he said that him and Nate used to get stoned all the time together. Then I went home and got in the shower. Pete came and got me at 12 and we went back to his house. Homer came over and I filled him in on what people are saying about him. Then Pete and I went to bed. He knows that I have a huge thing about being bitten and that’s what he did. I have a bite mark and a hickey on the side of my neck.  Sunday we lounged in bed all day. I was suppose to do my community service but I didn’t go. We watched “Richie Rich” and “Swimfan”. Then we went to the mall to find out the it closed at 6. Then we went to Wal*Mart and looked around there for absolutely nothing. I didn’t get home until 8ish. When I walked in mom told me that Nate called TWICE! He called me right when I walked in the door. We were talking about stuff and then I told him to call me back in a half hour so I could take a shower. He did and he told me goodnight and that he might call tomorrow.  He never called. BUT I saw him though.   I’m sticking with what I have! I also went for a walk with Ashley. That was great. We walked for an hour or so talking about our guys. I told her stuff that I’ve heard…only looking out for her. I wouldn’t have told her if I didn’t feel she should know. Anyways, it was great!!
Well her we are at Tuesday. Nothing too ’exciting’ happened today. So I am going to go and do some homework. PLCG!!
-((Amanda))-

.Me.Right.Now.
.Tic Tock . 4:48pm
.Wearin . White cords and NFG shirt
.doing. . Nothing at the moment
.Drinkin . Nothing at the moment
.Eatin . Again nothing
.Talkin to . No one
.Thinkin bout . What’s going to happen next?

 

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ok… im stumped.. i like him alot and he makes me smile.and god damn it all… 🙁 i dont kno wht to do .. im too scurrd to jus ask him out cuz im me and the only guys ive ever asked out was andrew… so yea! and blah!!! well i got to go think and smile.. keep smilen cuz i never kno who will fall in love with my smile. love always Junior

March 7, 2004

Hey Hun!I havent been to ur diary in awhile!so I dont really know whats going on with u!but from what Ive read in this entry u seem happy which is a REALLY good thing…but just look out for nate I know u probably still love him I know I still kind of love scott too but the only time he calls me is when he is in a fight with his fiancee so he basically used me but not anymore I got my heart broken

March 7, 2004

(cont.) way to many times and I don’t want to see a great person like you go through it, it was bad enough for me. well got to go buh bye hun luv yaz Ashley Ann