I see it all in his eyes…..

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Well I’m back home for a couple more hours. I didn’t have to go to the doctors today. They called and canceled it. They called while I was in the shower and Jessica was suppose to come and get me and she didn’t. She came and told me when I was brushing my teeth and it was time to leave. I was PISSED!! I had to get up at 8 and come home yesterday for nothing. Oh well. I want shopping with mom today. The women had too much caffeine today and she was all whacked out in all the stores. We were in TJ Max and she saw a wine back, and people back in the day use to call her wine back cause of how her last name is and her and I started cracking up in the middle of the store. Oh man it was great.

Wow I forgot about this entry. I started writing this at 2 this afternoon and its now 12:43 in the morning. See when I my entries I do them on Microsoft Word so I can check spelling, grammar and all of that good stuff. Anyways, the rest of the day was good. I took mom to her Adult Toy party thinger, and I went to the book store, the movie store, and Wal Mart. Didn’t find anything good to buy but it was good to just have time for me to think about things that are going on in my life. Clear my head in a sense. Then I came back home and went to my room until mom called at 10:30. So I went and picked her up. On the way home we had such a deep conversation it was unbelievable. We didn’t stop talking until now. I just walked in the door. We have been sitting outside talking about stuff for an hour. I cried a couple times. We talked about my “father“, Dan, how I’m growing up, and just stuff like that. I told her my feelings and she told me hers. I think us going to the counselors that day opened up a new door way for us to communicate and I am extremely grateful.

Well let me tell you about my night with Pete. It was amazing. He came and got me at 12:30 as planned. We went back to his house and watched “Cabin Fever”. That was an alright movie. He cuddled with me and then I got sick of sitting up so I told him to move over and make room for me to lay down to so he did and held me. Then after that we got ready for bed and before we went to bed we watched “Jackass: The Movie”. That was alright. Just the people are real damn idiots!! Then we went to sleep and we kept fading in and out of sleep. I kept moving cause I was uncomfortable and he said that I can move as much as I want, lay any way I wanted as long as I was comfortable and he’d work with me. Then out of no where he goes “I love you, Baby!!” I was in complete shock. I said it back of course and I was in my glory. We woke up at 8ish. It was so good to wake up with his arms around me and him being the first thing I saw in the morning. I kissed him good morning, but I was a little skeptical about how bad my breath might have smelled, but I guess it didn’t cause he didn’t say anything and he didn’t make a face. Woo! Then we just laid in bed all day. We watched “Joe Somebody“, “American Wedding“ and before he brought me home we some how got into watching “Star Trek“. Don’t ask. We slept too. I fell asleep for awhile and he watched me sleep. He said I was beautiful when I slept. I was so happy. I didn’t want to leave. But I had to. I came home and Dan was here and automatically jumped to conclusions. But my mom and I talked it out. Hopefully he‘ll watch the kids tomorrow and I‘ll see if he can come and get me again, if he wants, and stay with him again. Who knows.

Well I am gonna go to sleep cause its now 1:04 in the morning and I‘m mad ass tired, so good night everyone!! PLCG!!

-((Amanda))-