Love has its thorns….

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Well lets see. I have to call him tonight. I got an offline from him this morning at 5:50 in the morning. This is what it said:

*-*Pete*-*: I would like it if you would call me at 11 tonight I will be home and waiting for your call I want to clear a few things up with you, cause I never meant for this to hurt as bad as it has.

So this is what I said back:

Me: Hurt as bad for you? You, me, or both? Im hurt, but not to the point where I want to cry. At some times I do, yes, but then I just think about good stuff, and how, hopefully, we can pick things up again and Im fine. Ive heard that the person you are suppose to be with wont make you cry, and to not cry for a person who wont cry for you. You havent made me cry. The only time is when you said good things…..a happy cry. So who knows. I think Im talking a little weirdly because I just dont know what to think or feel, but yeah! Ill call you tonight and we’ll talk then.

So that’s what was said. I am really afraid to call him. Its been bothering me all day, but I cant wait to hear his voice. I am so scared of what is going to be said. And I think Im gonna end up crying…

Anyways, mom and Courtney came home today from the hospital!! I am so happy. Ive missed them guys so much. I saw the father…Dan…I was civil with him. The only thing that I said was “how are you?” and he said that he was fine. And that was the end fo the “conversation“. That was all good and fine with me. But its good to have them guys home.

Well I am gonna go. My head is killing me!! PLCG!!

-((Amanda))-