S**T
Hey there everyone!! Whats kicken chickens!? Well I have had such a s**tty damn, week, month, year, everything!! Well Nate and I arent together. Well this is what happened. I called him yesterday and I was like are we still together and he said no. I was like, WTF!! And he said the only reason why he asked was to see if I would still get back with him when he was ready to ask!! My heart is in millions of pieces again. Then yesterday I found out that I was fired from my job. I called them to see where my check was and theyre like you can come in and then click. They hung up on me. So Heidi and Leah took me to go get my check and Nanci .f**kin b**ch .was like well I terminated you!! I was like why?! And she said it was because I didnt show. Yeah I didnt show cause no one called to give me my schedule. They told us in the beginning that they were gonna call us and give us our schedules. I said that and shes like oh well, youve been terminated!! So I was one pi**ed girl last night. Then today, I went mallin with Leah and the lil girls. I had like 80 dollars, and now Im dead a** broke!! LoL!! I ended up buying Nate a New York Yankees hat. I dont know why though, I just did. Then I gave it to him tonight, and I felt bad. I felt like he wasnt gonna like it. He said he did. Then I wanted him to come over to my window and he wouldnt. He wouldnt give me a kiss or nothing. He said he cant do it at this time. What the h**l man!! Then I told him to call me and hes like ok. I said yeah itll happen in like 60 years, and hes like yep!! I wanted to punch him. I think my love for him is fading because of all the s**t that he is putting me through. Why doesnt he just come out and tell me if he doesnt wanna be with me instead of us going through this big mess?! It would make life a whole h**l of a lot easier!! I love the kid REGARDLESS of what happens!! He is my first true love, the one that I made love to first in my life!! Hes the one that I will always hold true in my heart. I cant hate him, even if I try. I cant. I find myself loving him no matter what kind of s**t is going on. I wish a lot of love and happiness in his life, and that I hope he knows that I am real. And that if he ever wants me back, that I will be right there standing. Even though him and I arent together, I am always with him, and he is always with me. Nothing is going to change that. Well I gotta run. Gotta go and pick up mom!! PLCG!!
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[Verse 1]
I know that you and I have been through many downs before oh yeah…
But that don’t mean the chance
Has gone away to leave each other more
We’ve struggled and we’ve fought
To keep us both between the lines oh yeah…
Through many years we’ve cried our tears
And always kept our pride aside…so you can’t say that…
[Chorus]
We still…
Always argue all the time
Never make love when its right
We still…
Never say we love each other
Always up in one another
We still…
Fight for every little thing
Never ever stop to think that we still…
Always loved each other
[Verse 2]
I know at times, you’d believe we would never change..oh yeah…
You said we’d never change…
That it was much to overcome
Much of an obstacle to take mmmm
But you were always one
To always think the worst of things yeah…
Yeah…yeah..
So it was always me to take the stand
And take the initiative so you can’t say that…
[Chorus]
We still…fight for every little thing
Never ever stop to think that we still
Always loved each other
[Chorus]