LETTER TO NATE
You know you really, really, really, really, want to be with me. So why don’t you stop beating around the bush and come and give it to me and be with me!!
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Nate,
Hey there kid, whats goin on?! Not too much here, just a lot of stuff on my mind. Well the obvious question, are we together or arent we?! I mean Im confused. One minute I think we are and then the next I think we arent. I mean its hard, if we arent, to see you with other girls. It is. I miss you so much that it kills me inside. All I wanna do is be with you, and you wanna be with me too. You know that.
Secondly, when I see you, all I wanna do is just freeze time so you dont have to go anywhere. Like yesterday, when you came to Heathers, it was SO good to see you, feel you, kiss you, and just be with you. Bein in your arms is the most greatest feeling that I have ever felt. And today when we were dancing in the living room, was like old times. How we danced in your room, and you sang to me Westlife Swear It All Over Again.
Baby Boy, why cant we be together. Fuck my mother, fuck everything!! Just lets be together. I see in your eyes every time you look at me, the hurt. Your hurt kid. You wanna be with me as bad as I wanna be with you. Ive wanted you for years!! Baby, its almost January 10th. Its only 5 months away!! Are we going to be able to consider ourselves together for a year?! I want that so bad!! I havent dont anything with anyone. I havent dated, or had sex. You are the only person that I wanna make love to, the only person that I wanna be with. I hate having to dream that you and I are together. I wanna be able to dream about us, and wake up knowing that you and I are together. I need you here by my side everyday. I dont care if you cant be here physically, I know that you cant, and I cant either .not right now, but I know your heart, soul and love is. Baby you dont need all these other hoes and bitches .you arent like that. Baby, Id do ANYTHING to have you back. Plus Id do ANYTHING for you, and you know that!! If I caused you any hurt at all Ill make it up to you I PROMISE!!
Well Baby, I seem to be repeating myself in every letter to you pretty much. I just dont want you to ever forget how much I love and care for you. We had plans to be married and shit. Do you remember?! I was you future wife, and you were, and hope you still want to be, my future husband. I love you, just never forget!!
Love always and forever,
Amanda