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FUCKING HOT and i am FUCKING SUNBURNED and oh so spoiled by seattle weather because by this time in colorado i’d be carrying a spray bottle everywhere and misting myself every 10-20 seconds but fuck, i’m still not used to this shit blaaaaaaaggghhhh so fucking hot.

 And I cooked in here and that made it even hotter and I have ice cream but I don’t want it right now so I’m just rubbing a water bottle along my crispy neck, applying and re-applying aloe lotion even though aloe’s healing and soothing properties are a load of bullshit, because ow, it hurts, and it probably does something psychosomatic even though i know it’s a lie, right? right guys? RIGHT?

DW and I had a mostly-good weekend with a side salad of kinda-issues, but then again, I think last weekend was the only time since he got back that it hasn’t been a mix-n-match, pain-n-pleasure pack.  Oh no wait, just remembered something came up last weekend too.  Whatevs, everything’s alright.  And alright is better than bad so I’ll take it.

I still have feelz for him.  They just hide from me sometimes and I don’t know where they go or why they come back but I gave up trying to figure that shit out because it just drives me crazy.  Chasing invisible rabbits.

About to get stoned and watch an Irish horror-comedy in my newly mostly clean apartment and maybe eat a biscuit or something because I made some of those but then I was too hot to want any.  Motherfucking sun just take a nap already okay?

Oh holy fuckballs i have laundry FUCK

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When I got hella sunburned (like the kind that makes you wince and cry just by *moving*), the ONLY thing that helped was Gold Bond Ultimate Healing. I slathered it on by the fistful. White bottle with a gold/mustardy-color and navy blue logo. It’s a THICK-ASS CREAM MUTHAFUCKA. Not to be confused with thick ass-cream. Hyphens: very important.

June 30, 2013

This entry reminded me of Deb from the best show ever, Dexter, because she’s always like fuckfuckfuck fuckballs! Anyways, she’s really funny and profane, and it’s a part of what makes the show, I swear. Also, I think I can relate with the feelings-go-away and the feelings-come-back. What is this black magic?! It can kind of throw you.

June 30, 2013

hahahaha I love how the tone/length of this entry really reflects how hot you’re feeling

July 1, 2013

I use Hawaiian Tropic After Sun Lotion and it works like a miracle. You have to reapply like, four or five times a day at least, but it feels good. ~I’ll be

July 1, 2013

“really good at being humble” haa ha ha haaaa! if I saw that, I’d just mentally move him into the moron club along with a large percentage of other men and their profiles

Solarcaine. I get the green kind that’s mostly aloe because it keeps my skin from cracking – but Solarcaine in and of itself has LIDOCAINE in it which is like the shit they put in your gums at the dentist. You Feel NOTHING. It’s amazing.

re: No, [placebo] doesn’t read me, but the name sounds familiar. I must have seen her notes around. Yeah, I’m the same way, it’s difficult for me to talk with people with Asperger’s. I understand the difficulty that they go through, but it can be incredibly uncomfortable and I don’t know how to handle it.

p.s. I totally wrote you a message on OkC, lawlz

July 1, 2013

aloe is amazing and defo not a placebo. When I use it on my face .. the spots clear up so fast (compared to anything else) But sunburns are a different kettle of fish, especially if you’re still out the sun, should be over doing the sun lotion.