Piano (ex translation)

I want to use this momentum
These inputs
The approaching excess of energy
And the exhaustion
All of it
For levity
Not escape but pursuit
I would go there
I realise that given the tangible means I would go there
And I realise that I am going there
Slowly
Patiently
Without consideration for anything else

It is a very aggressive sense of adjustment when I’m reminded of what I leave behind
Some of it is without question precious
There is a shift of mindset
I humbly am grateful for what I receive
And I do not expect to receive any more
Yet when the nearness of it approaches
The sense of it
The life in it – its cognisance

I don’t think I can let you in here
In is incorrect, perhaps through
The abstract is perhaps a gate or portal, which reminds me of the fondness I have for the word
I don’t think I can let you through
I want to
Or I do not want to
Regardless of desire or fear, there doesn’t seem to exist a passage of equality
A shared language or dialect
The tools, should there be any, to understand it only exist within it
You would have to manufacture your own toolset
And that idea excites me
It makes more sense
Tools fashioned from an entirely different set of abstracts
Of experiences
Different assumptions
An entirely separate universe having nothing to do with my own
That makes sense
A lot of sense to me

All these things I do not hide away
They are evident
Of-course, they are exceptionally subtle
It takes lengthy exposure to be able to discern it
To see it
Where it lives
When it happens
Such things often I do not know myself
But they tend to hide themselves
They are wise
Extremely agile regardless of my health or fluctuating energy
I generate these things
Or they generate me
And they generate me
And we have nothing to do with one-another
All told, I imagine that eventually it would be the pragmatism
The normality, that you would find the least interesting
Yet you seem to want it the most
Fear it the least
An impossible thought though; now I project my own fearlessness of the strangeness onto you
It doesn’t work like that
I will always respect you
I want you to live naturally
Naturally you should be drawn to the strangeness
Naturally abhor it
Naturally ignore it
We are a natural people regardless of our struggles to align our behaviour
I do not reconcile these elements any-more
I cannot reconcile them for you
It is not a matter of whether or not they can be reconciled
Or the assumption that they are and all that is lacking is the agility to understand it
More than anything, perception of reconciliation is irrelevant
Many things are irrelevant
It’s an entirely different subset of rules
Re-enforcing those established as much as they break them

There is no climax
I decide that this is what I have to say this evening