Ambiguity

The concept of wellness is an abstract and ambiguous one indeed. Is wellness simply when no outward symptoms of illness can be seen by others? Is it when I am able to go about my daily duties without problems? Is it when I’m distracted enough from my illness that it may as well not exist?
I think I’ve been to all sorts of corners of the idea, and I keep finding more. I don’t know what well is, what it should be. The holistic among us, including myself, will say that wellness is when I am comfortable with myself, however the demons I face are not ones that take issue with self-acceptance or self-image. I have had no issue accepting myself, it’s living in the world with the rest of you that presents me problems.
When I was an angsty teen I thought to myself, ‘These rules weren’t made for me’, and I’ve oft revisited that line of thinking.

What has brought this bout of introspection today?
Today I have my first appointment with a new psychiatrist.

Wish me luck.