Stolen from Beth

 

 

 

Ten Things I Wish I Could Say to Ten Different People Right Now:

1. You are the sweetest most wonderful thing that has ever happened to me.  Most of the time I’m pretty sure you are the only good in my life.  You are beautiful.  You are perfect and I love you so damn much.  In ten or twelve years when you want to date, don’t hate me because I don’t want to lose my baby.

2. Seriously, I don’t know what to say.  i still love you, but I hate you.  i wish you would go away.  You say she needs you as much as she needs me, but I will never believe that.  You aren’t worth her time or affection.  You are a piece of shit.  You always have been and you always will be.  You could save us all so much heartache if you would just go the fuck away.

3. You are evil, but you are my most favorite person in the world.  No one knows me like you.  I hate your boyfriend, but I love you.  If you leave me to go to school, you know I won’t be able to get out of bed for days.  But I will be happy for you to get to do what you want.

4. I don’t know how you we so meant to come into my life.  Its very strange for me.  I didn’t want to care for anyone else.  I damn sure didn’t wnat to be in love again, but you bring it out of me.

5. I want you to walk.  I want you to be healthy.  I just want you to be Mom again.

6. Get your lazy ass out of bed and help me with Mom.  Its fucking ridiculous that you want to lay in bed until you have to go to work and you want to pretend that you don’t have to help around the house.

7. Please be good.  you came so close to not passing first grade.  You are so smart.  PLease sit down and listen and quit driving you teachers insane.

8. Get off my fuckign back.  i want to go to med school.  I don’t want to be "just an RN" because its and inconvience for you to have to wait for me to get home.  Get over it.  you wnated me to make something of myself, well this is what I fucking choose.

9. I still have a crush on you.  its so not right.  Not many people can figure me out, but you did pretty quick.  Its strange to have a crush at this age for someone your age.  its just strange.

10. You are too fucking far away.  Come to Texas.  Live with me and be happy.  I’m way better than any man anyway.

Nine Things About Myself:

1. I’m not happy if I’m not the best in my class.

2. I’m still distraught about my B over the summer.

3.  I feel guilty for trying to be somthing so grand.  Who wakes up one day to say I want to be a doctor?  Its kinda over the top.

4. I feel like I failed Doll with this divorce.

5.I’m the cheapest drunk ever.  I can’t drink half a beer without walking funny.

6. I want another tattoo.  I think its hot, but William isn’t a fan.  I’m getting one anyway.

7. I need to shave, but I don’t feel like it.

8. I have a new favorite website.  Its RedTube.  I know its pathetic, but they make me laugh so hard.  Who says that shit when they are screwing?

9. I want to have all my rolls cut off and a pair of DD’s installed.

Eight Ways to Win My Heart:

1. Make me laugh.

2. Cook for me

3. Make my Doll laugh.

4. get along with my family

5. be faithful

6. talk to me and not the tv

7. make Brandy love you

8. tell me I’m the only one for you

Seven Things That Cross My Mind A Lot:

1. I have to get an A..

2. I need to finish school.

3. I have to get a 35 on the MEDCAT

4. How much more fucking laundry.

5. I need to vacuum

6. I need sleep.

7. I have to make 70 befor Lich King comes out.

Six Things I Do Before I Fall Asleep:

1. brush my hair

2. wash my face

3. Pee.

4. check e-mail

5. Turn fan on.

6. Tell Doll to go bakc to her bed 5 million bazillion times before I give up and pass out.

Five People Who Mean A Lot:

1. Doll

2. Mom

3. William

4. Brandy

5. Beth

Four Things I’m Wearing Right Now:

1. night gown

2. undies

3. glasses

4. that was it

Three Songs That I Listen to Often (Currently):

1. Breakdown- Seether

2. Disturbia- Rhianna

3. Q- EvansBlue

Two Things I Want To Do Before I Die:

1. Make my Doll happy.

2. Go to Disney

One Confession:

1. I am afraid of what I feel for William.  he is a wonderful kind person, but I don’t know that I deserve that.  I feel like I don’t know how to make a relationship work, and he needs more than that.  What if I will always be holding back, afraid of getting hurt?

Y’all take care,

 

Mandy

 

Ovarian cancer: It whispers, so listen.