2/21/08

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Today is Joseph’s birthday. I sent him a text.

I don’t know what I feel. I wish I didn’t feel anything. Maybe then I wouldn’t feel guilty for looking at the personals or flirting all the time.

I should have ended it completly when we first seperrated. I’ve only made things harder by clinging on. I lov ehim so much, but I think he’ll only rip my heart out again.

He still looks at other women. He still dreams about them. I can’t accept that. I want to be the only one.

Oh God, why can’t I just fucking hate him and move on?

Y’all take care,

Mandy

Ovarian cancer: It whispers, so listen.

The Doctor

February 21, 2008

(((HUGS)))

1angrylilgrl

my bf thinks of other ppl when he gets off by himself, i was so hurt when i found out, its crued.

bsue1080

dude i dont feel shit, i even forgot

i hate him enough for the both of us

HANGOVER

February 22, 2008

Hate isn’t the answer. You’ll find the strength in time. We all do. I look back at my relationship with Joseph and Joshua’s mom and wonder what the hell was I thinking. I so was not me with her. Live and learn. Now I have my Sonja aka diarist Valkyrie.

A stronger woman

July 23, 2008

what happened with you two if you dont mind me asking?