4/5/07

Joseph emailing again.

I just wanted to say I am sorry for pushing you to talk to me today but we needed to I think any way.I think the thing that bothers me the most is the lack of emotion you just seem like you don’t know me that’s hard I just want to say if you cant forgive me or trust me ever again I understand but just divorce me and move on with your life I don’t want to drag you down your whole life (before you start I am not being a Joan of Arch or whiny or any of that ) and I Will try and let you go but no promises I am sure I am going to get a ass chewing for this e-mail that’s how it always works….
Also I left my most valuable material object with your mom my watch it is a $100 watch believe it or not it means a lot to me but I could not tell her why I left it (she was sleeping did not want to bother her) I want her to know if ever she misses me and is thinking of me she can look at that watch and know that I am always thinking of her and know that I love her please pass that along to her thank you

I didn’t even write back.  When he called today I told him I was looking on the internet and talking to lawyers to find out what its going to cost me.  So far $750 is the cheapest.  I need to do more looking.  I told him fine, stop pushing me.  I have to save money and then I will get the divorce.  I just want to be left alone.  I will not be hurt by him anymore.

Fucker.

Mom is being moved to a long term care hospital today.  I really don’t feel like dealing with Joseph and all this in one day.  Stupid fucker.

I hate that he always finds a way to bother me.

GGGGGGGRRRRRRRRRRRRRR.  Stupid fucker!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Y’all take care and hug those babies tight.

Mandy

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