ahh, my od fix

Yay!!  I have internet again!!!  I went around trying to catch up on everybody and nopting as much as possible.  If I didn’t note you, I will do my best to soon.  I have missed you all soo much.  I thought I was going to go crazy without my OD much longer.

Anyway, here are some entries I wrote in Word while I was bored ottta my gourd.  Sorry for the whining, but what can I say?  I am an OD-whore!!!  🙂

1/9/04

I can’t stand it anymore!! I hate not having internet. Its driving me crazy. I’m never going to get caught up on all my favs. Since I can’t vent anywhere else, I am writing this in Word. At least y’all will get a decent entry and I can bitch this way.

Supposedly, Debbie, will call Comcast sometime this week and get our cable on. Maybe I wouldn’t miss the computer so much if I had something else to keep me busy.

Doll is a “touch me not” these past few days. She is so busy exploring and playing with the bastard children that Mommy doesn’t matter that much. She stands up in the middle of the room and hollers for me to look at her now. Smart shit. She kills me how fast she is growing. In a week she will be nine months old. WOW!!! How can that be possible? My child is almost a toddler???? What happened to the time? Did I blink? I must have missed it all.

I guess its time to explain where I’ve been so long, huh? Did anybody miss me?

We got moved in finally. I tried so hard to get packed before, but shit kept happening so we packed the day of the move. Oh, and lets not forget the thunderstorm and bucket of water that happened to be falling the day we moved. I was not the kindest of people that day. Joseph had fucked with me way too much. He had the next day off. I didn’t see why we had to move in the rain. It was bullshit to me. My uncle was the only person around with a truck. We borrowed him and his truck, but Joseph waited till five in the evening to ask him to come over. He wasn’t happy with Joseph either after that. So, we load his truck up with all the big stuff (my mattresses!!!!) and three more cars with the little things and we were off to move. My uncle got lost!!!! Nope, not kidding. Lost with my bed, in a thunderstorm. I think I had a right to be a bitch!!!! Come on now, where the fuck were we supposed to sleep? I sure as hell wasn’t going to put my child to sleep in a wet bed. Anyway, we got everything over there. It was all wet, but we made it in one load. My uncle told Joseph if he wants any help with the next move, he better make it on a sunny day.

That night Doll and I stayed with my parents. We just couldn’t stay in a wet bed. I left Joseph’s sorry butt ti enjoy to cold, damp mattress all to himself. I was still pissed, can you tell? We shared Brandy’s bed. It was alright, but all the moving had been really, really hard on Baby Doll. She had a hell of a time sleeping. I think she picked Brandy’s nose a couple of times during the night. HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!! She does it to me all the time so its nice when someone else gets it too.

Next day, which would be Monday, I think, all the days kind of run together, we are sleeping in Brandy’s bed, it’s a little after eleven and there is banging at the front door. I thought I would roll over and ignore it, but the second knock gave me one of those oh god feelings so I went to answer it. It was Nikki with her piece of shit boyfriend and the three kids from the third world family. She said Uncle Fred was gone. He had Alzheimer’s for years now and we were expecting him to pass away eventually, but you are never really ready for it.

CPS came to take the kids. Uncle Fred was their legal guardian and there were no instructions in the will for them so now they are in a foster home. Though I wasn’t happy that they were taken away while they were staying with me, truth be told they are much better off in foster care than with the third world family. Nikki told me she didn’t know how there were going to eat now with Uncle Fred and the kids gone, there will be no more food stamps and that is all they have been eating with. It’s a damn shame that there were five adults in the house and only two of them work. I don’t know how anybody can live that way, wondering if you are going to eat today because you spent all of your money on a carton of cigarettes yesterday. To me that is fucking ridiculous.

Oh well, its taken me four hours to write this entry. I guess it will have to do. I can’t wait until I get to have my OD back. I bet no one reads this entry. I probabbly wouldn’t. I’ld say it was to damn long. Guess I’ll have to break them all up. Y’all can tell me to stop rambling at anytime, I swear I won’t mind. Damnit, I’m going to bed. This is sounding more and more retarded by each line.

Nite everybody. Take care and hug those babies tight.

Mandy

1-11-01

Hey there!!! Its another lovely day without internet access. Joseph gets paid Thursday and hopefully will will get our router then. I miss OD sooo much. I hate this having to type it somewhere else and then move it over crap. Well that is how I write most of my entries, but I don’t have to save them and hide them from prying eyes.

Yes, I’ll quit rambaling now. Why are you reading this anyway? I can’t believe how damn boring I am today? Its eight o’clock in the morning and the only thing I have to look forward to today is doing laundry. Yippee!!! Ohmigod, I am so damn bored. Its has to be this house. When I lived at home, I had plenty of things to do. Here, I don’t clean up after them (and I will not). I don’t cook for them (only if they beg). And most of the time I stay in my room so I don’t have to see them anyway. I know it sounds terrible, but they don’t make any effort to be around Doll or us so why should I try any harder? This was their idea, not mine. Oh well, it is a means to an end.

I am looking for apartments now. Any couple of minutes I have to use a computer I have been checking listings. It is outrageous what some places want for an apartment these days. There is a one bedroom I was looking at, ohh, it was soooo pretty, but it was $1200 a month. Are they fucking kidding? $1200 for one bedroom, one bath and not even a fireplace. Crazy. And there is a complex down the road from where we are living now that has two bedroom/two baths for only $430 a month. Its kind of a trashy apartment, but the inside is clean. I’m sure that is the kind of place we will end up in.

Oh well now that I have bored y’all to death, I guess I go find something to do. Y’all take care and hug those babies tight!!!

Mandy

1/12/04

Nothing much new today. Still no internet, but at least I can talk to myself. Heh.

I have TV today. My Daddy was soo sweet. He brought me a set of rabbit ears. Local TV sucks. Supposedly MIL called the cable company to come out and hook us up this week. I sure hope so. I am having Food TV withdraws.

Woohoo!!! Alias comes on tonight and I get to watch it from my own bed. Yippee!!!! I can’t believe that they moved it to Wensday nigh, but its okay. It was Bachlor/Bachlorette on Wensday but I like Alias better. This Bachlorette sucks anyway. I didn’t like that heffer Jen back when she was on the first time.

Good God this is a boring entry. What the hell happened to me? I used to be funny. Hmm.

Must find something interesting to do. I want to paint, but none of my shit is here to paint with. I wish I had the gas to drive across town and get my supplies. That would be awesome and I could let Baby Doll play with a bruch and see what happens. Hmmmm… maybe that is an idea.

I guess that’s enough for now. Y’all take care and hug those babies tight.

Mandy

That’s probablly to much to read at once, but I only have one free arm right now.  The Doll is asleep on my chest.  Yes I am aware that I am spoiling her, but I don’t care.  I’m off to try and note some more.

Y’all taje care and hug those babies tight.

Meme