Nothing New

Life sucks. Not really, but it sure is screwed up at this point. Not a damn thing is known about Moms seizures. Yet another doctor will be in at some point today. I think that makes the fourth one. I think they all have their heads in their asses. Her real doctor just found out she was in the hospital. They finally called me back yesterday, after I left two messages. Assholes. Im sorry, everything about this is getting on my nerves right now.

My job holding this house together is getting harder. My dad shuts down when things go wrong, so I have to force him to spend time with Jesse. Its not that he doesnt want to, its just that he doesnt know how to deal with things. Brandy (my sister), is an ass. She cant deal with worrying, so she just turns into mega-bitch and bites everyones head off. Joseph is just Joseph, a big horny toad, who wont tell me what he really feels about Moms being in the hospital, or any other problem for that matter. Dad took Jesse to the hospital to see Mom because he was begging to be with her. He freaked out. She had oxygen on and shes wearing several monitors, so she didnt look normal. He started to hug her, then backed away when he was looking at all the stuff attached to her. Im sure he was scared, I know I am.

Anyway, thanks to yall for letting me bitch. I write again later.

Mandy

once again, I hope everything turns out ok…family members tend to act strange when someone in the family is really sick and they don’t know how to deal with it. Give it some time, I’m sure everyone will be ok in the long run.

bsue1080

June 28, 2004

You know its not that I can’t deal, its that I have to keep functioning too. You forget I have to work or we don’t eat. Yes, your husband and our father work, but we know I make the most money, and if I had to not work or whatever you want me to do to “deal” that we wouldn’t survive. I know you say this is being mean, but this is also being pratical. You know I love you more than anything.