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♥ I wish I had something better to write. 48 hours now and not a word from him. I’m starting to wonder if he’s afraid to contact me because I was so angry the last time we talked. It’s incredibly hard to NOT just bite the bullet and text him, but I’ve managed to make it this far so I might better just continue to be silent.

I went to the parade tonight in town with my family. I don’t know why I continue to go every year- it’s such a stupid parade and a waste of time to stand there in the cold. We arrived early enough that we got a good spot on the corner we usually stand on. By the time we could see flashing lights in the distance, there were people pushing and shoving to get to the front of the crowd so they could see. One woman with a child in a stroller came up behind me and my family (there were 8 of us together including a child and a dog) and literally pushed her way through us so her kid could see. She happily and obliviously stood there in between us, which forced us to have to stand behind her. Like.. really? FUCK OFF lady!! Arrive earlier and get a better view instead of pushing your way to the front. We ended up moving from the corner to farther down the street where there was no one standing. 

It wasn’t worth even going to see, honestly. The floats (if you can even call them that) were pathetic. Every year there is a theme that people don’t bother following- and the ones that do have NO imagination of creativity. This years theme was a cartoon Christmas and either people didn’t bother to do anything, or they all did the Grinch and Charlie Brown. Some of them didn’t even have lights- in a "parade of lights" in the freaking dark. I think I even saw a truck pulling a little trailer that didn’t have a stitch of decoration on it at all. What’s the fucking point of that? I can see that in my backyard.

I’m really just complaining because I’m fucking miserable and I needed something to bitch about.