Don’t know..

♥ I don’t know what to do right now.

Apparently, I had a facial expression about a week ago that made people think I was in a bad mood and they decided I needed "space". Ever since then, I haven’t known what was going on, but I’ve felt excluded and distanced from everyone. Yesterday shit blew up, I got a note from one of them telling me it was her last attempt to see what was wrong with me and that my behaviour was making me difficult to be around for everyone.

Now, I have no idea what the fuck is evening happening in people’s minds, but now people are walking on egg shells around me thinking that I am in some kind of depressed funk. I had ONE day where I was PMSing and wanted to do some stuff on my own and the next thing I know everyone thinks there is something terribly wrong with me. Am I not allowed to have a day? 

I’m not explaining this very well. 

I have been generally peeved with people, I won’t lie about that. The things people say sometimes or the bullshit going on just drives me mad- but I get over it. This isn’t anything new! People have driven me mad many times over the summer and it always passes. The difference was, this time Erin was visiting camp on a particularly annoying day and she opened her big mouth to Janet and got the "Something is wrong with Meghan" ball rolling. So now that she’s gone, I find out she’s been texting with Janet about me and causing more drama that is completely unnecessary. No one is talking to me or giving me any kind of eye contact even, and I am crying in my bed because I feel like no one happy with me. 

Anyway, that’s it for now. People are mad at me and I don’t know how to fix it. so I’m done. This is the way the summer is ending at camp davern.