Nope.

Dear Diary;

I do better when I just don’t talk/think about it.

I saw my aunt for the first time since it happened today. I told my mom before she came that I didn’t want to talk about it at all and she said okay. Of course, the first thing my aunt did when she came in the door was look at me, start crying and walking towards me with her arms open saying "well, let’s just get this over with". Way to make me burst into tears. Not cool.

My other aunt sent me a sappy "sorry about the loss of your pet" card. I quickly read it and tucked it away. I don’t even really remember what it said or what she wrote in it.

Work has kept my mind off of it.

I may or may not ever write about him and what happened. It’s too painful to do it any time soon.

·I need a new pair of boots, and every time I think of it it reminds me of him. I put it out of my mind, and just deal with the wet sock problem.

·I flooded the kitchen at work on Friday.

·Tomorrow is a holiday.

·My brother is off this week and he’s going to come visit at some point.

·I need to get a new bathing suit before summer because I’m going back to Davern.

when I lost my lil baby girl on Easter Sunday last year..it sucked..it was like losing my child..I tried so hard to put it out of my mind too…but everywhere I turned..looked..I seen her and lil things that reminded me of her..especially when I couldnt find her favorite toy (a troll doll)of all things to be cremated with her..I was so upset..about a week after I took her in to be cremated..and

I was leaving to go get her..I kicked something in front of my dresser..when I looked down..there laid her troll doll at my feet..the way she always brought it to me to throw..I immediatly burst into tears..it was like her way of saying good bye to me I think..when I picked up her remains at the funeral home..I was soooo mad because they had the urn in a bag..like it was a package I bought at the

mall..and I yelled at them for it..I’m sure they thought I was just a crazy cat lady.but I didn’t care..she was my baby for 19 years..and I wasn’t about to have her in some bag..I set her on my bookshelf alongside sits her troll doll..and I say hi to her every morning..shes still my sweet girl and I’ll never forget her..and although you wont forget him..he’ll always still be in your heart..forever

I am so sorry about your loss honey..it does get easier as time rolls on..biggg hugggs I’m here if u need an ear or a shoulder from someone who def. understands!

Leavin Notes

February 20, 2011

Many months passed before I could even mention anything about my dog without crying my eyes out. I totally get it. All you can do is hang on there.<3

** gentle hugs **

..Ella..

February 21, 2011

You could put breadbags over your feet before putting on your outdoor footwear. I had to write about Angelo the way that I did in order to deal with the pain without ignoring it. And Sol sends his condolances. The same thing happened to one of his feline loved ones.

Raven E

I get it, too. Hugs,

sedentary

February 23, 2011

I understand, so far all I’ve lost is a fish at 10 years old but I cried for a long time over it. I’ve got 5 cats in existence right now and I can’t imagine how sad it will be when any of them go. The oldest is 15.