Could it be?

 Dear Diary;

So….

Work is good. Well, one of the two jobs is good, the other is… not. I actually have started to dread Friday’s and they seem to be coming around SO fast these days..

I had a good conversation with the team leader/ my supervisor today when I was done work. She told me I was great and that she’d trade the other girl in for just one of me. That made me feel pretty good, I’m not gonna lie. I actually like the ASP so I work my ass off and it shows.

I was thinking today about what I was going to do for the summer- since the ASP job ends when school does. It would mean that I only have the Friday morning job at the Activity Center and since I’m making car payments now, I can’t afford to just work Friday mornings all summer long. I talked to Kirsty (the above mentioned supervisor) about whether or not there would be summer hours available and she told me that if she was me, she would watch my own back and pick up hours anywhere else I could get them, because it wasn’t likely that I would even know about hours until the last day of school comes around. So I decided that I was going to email the new camp director and talk to her about possibly going back to camp for the summer- except that I would need to take Friday morning off to go to the other job.

I don’t know if they’ll go for that or not, but I’m crossing my fingers. I didn’t plan on going back to camp for another summer, but I just can’t help myself. If the option is right there in front of me and I don’t take it.. I’m a fool. If I don’t go back to camp and I sit around hoping there will be summer hours at LCSS- there won’t end up being any. If I take the job at camp, they’ll be calling me to go in to LCSS in the summer. You’re damned if you do and you’re damned if you don’t. I might as well choose the one I want to go to, right?

Anywhore…

blah blah blah work.

♥ Mom got her bandages off today. Her finger looks pretty swollen and gross where they cut it off, but it’s healing. Where they cut it and sewed the skin over the top, it looks like it comes to a point.. which is weird.

♥ I have yet to decide on a tattoo so I can use my gift certificate to For The Love Of Ink. I’m thinking about it though and I plan to get it done before.. let’s say… June.

♥ My aunts, my cousins and I are thinking about planning a trip to Disney / Florida in 2 years. I’d like to lose more weight by then if I could so I could wear a bathing suit and lay on the beach without feeling like a whale. I have no problem losing the weight- I need to learn how to keep it off me once it’s gone. Over the past two years I’ve lost a total of  (let me calculate) …. around 68-70 lbs. The problem is that I keep gaining back 5 lbs here… 5lbs there… I tend to pack on winter weight.

♥ There’s a song called "grenade" by Bruno Mars that I dig because it has a line in it that I think is brilliant. The line is .."Tell the devil I said, hey, when you get back to where you’re from", and when I sing it in the car I always add a solid "UHH!" to the end as an extra added punch. It makes me smile.

♥ Sad to hear that one of my fave bands, Paramore, broke up. 🙁 I still love them.