NJM 10 – No win.

 Dear Diary;

I’m overwhelmed with work crap already! I went in today for NCI training and Back Care – and I was happily surprised when it was all over at 1pm. I was completely expecting to be there until like.. 7pm. By the time it was over I was dying to get out of there- my head was pounding (AGAIN) and I was starting to feel nauseated. I’m convinced that my glasses are what’s causing my headaches- not because my eyes are strained but because they sit on my nose and bother me and my head must be abnormally large because they’re a bit tight on the sides of me head too. I came home and took them off and realized that because I’ve been wearing them non-stop since I got them I can no longer see without them! For real, yo! Everything was wonky and I felt really, really short.

Anyway..

I got to training this morning and was bombarded with a list of dates that they want me to work at the after school program- but she wasn’t clear at all about where or what times or anything else really- she just told me write down about 4 dates that she wants me to work and I had to look at her and go "Uh.. so.. where is this?" and I think that’s when she realized that I’d never been to the place before. I still don’t have any other information- just the dates. I also have a date to do something with the database, but I’m unclear on what that’s about too. They keep shooting dates at me to do stuff and then don’t explain what it’s for or where I’m supposed to go or what time! It’s like they just expect me to know it all. I keep having to remind them that I’m new and confused. I literally had to stop someone and and ask how to get the fuck out of the house I was in because I was lost. Again- they just assumed I’d know. It’s frustrating- but I’m going to just continue to remind them that I don’t know what they’re talking about until they get the point.

moving on..

♥ Dad’s gone back to the hunting camp for the remainder of the week. I think he’s coming home Sunday.
♥ My cat is asleep in the window sill, all stretched out and cute. He’s a good boy. He hasn’t peed on the floor since I last wrote about him.
♥ My dog is asleep on the floor beside me, all stretched out and cute. lol. She’s dreaming and her feet are moving.
♥ It’s a BEAUTIFUL day today.
♥ One of the girls in training today was talking about something and she mentioned having to have endurance because she needed to do the job for another 20 years (I think we were talking about back care) and all I could think about was ‘dear Lord, I hope to hell I’m not stuck doing this job in 20 years. I’ll shoot myself’.  <– I think that’s a good indication that I’m in the wrong field.
♥ Cat’s awake. Gotta go.

I’m sorry that all I have to write about now it work. I hate that.