A lot frustrating. *

 Dear Diary;

This is the message I just got:

Hey Meghan,

I hear you are upset about the outdoor center. I’m sorry that you weren’t hired…unfortunately I’m nowhere near in charge there and Rick tends to hire people HE knows. I only found out a couple of days ago, and I meant to tell you but as we both know, things got a little hectic near the end.

However, I have some good news. I have your end of summer eval which is wonderful because you are, AND Pinecrest is looking for fall staff if you are interested in working there. It may be a good opportunity for you. Let me know if you’re interested.

I’m at camp tomorrow cleaning up if you would like to join and we can sit down and do your eval too. If not, I’m down for meeting up anytime!

Dodie

Here’s why I’m unimpressed:

I’ve been asking about the outdoor center for a MONTH. Over the past few weeks, I’ve mentioned several times how I hadn’t heard anything and I was constantly asking Dodie if she knew anything- and she never would give me a straight answer. She KNEW on Sunday that I wasn’t hired and didn’t tell me. I sat here for the past two days telling my parents that I didn’t know and that I would hear something soon I hope. I even sent messages to Dodie’s boss- Kate- and she sent me rick’s email and whatever.. no one told me until just NOW that I wasn’t hired.

I’m pissed for several reasons. 1- Rick hired Liz without knowing her so that excuse is bullshit. Liz got hired because Dodie likes her and they became fast friends this summer. 2- It would have been nice to know that I didn’t have a job a few weeks ago so I could’ve started planning my fucking life. 3- fuck my life.

I’m really unhappy right now.

 

Edit*

So, I look like a complete idiot.

Kate sent me a message the other day that said this:

Sorry to have missed you last night before I left. Thank you for a great summer at Davern! It is hard to believe it has come and gone already.

I’m not sure if Rick has been in touch yet – I have passed along a message for him to follow up with you regarding fall.

I have heard from my colleague at Camp Pinecrest that they are still looking for fall program (5 positions) and kitchen (1) staff. ….etc

and I didn’t think anything of it. I assumed that when she said she passed along a message for him to follow up with me, that meant that she was telling him (again) that I was interested and that he would call me to talk to me about it. But no, it all makes sense now. She was trying to say that she wanted him to call to tell me that I wasn’t hired. Yep. That makes much more sense. Maybe she thought I already knew- and perhaps that’s why Dodie messaged me today. Because Kate told her I was still expecting to be hired and maybe she should let me know so I don’t sit here hoping for something that won’t happen.

I feel like a fool.