Eyes

 Dear Diary;

My eyes are driving me insane. I don’t think I’ve ever had so much trouble seeing in my life.

I have glasses. These glasses were supposed to originally help me see the black board when I was in school because I couldn’t see things that were far away. When I was in college (6 years ago) I had my perscription updated and changed and I got new glasses because I was having trouble seeing things again. I wear these glasses for everything from being on the computer (I’m wearing them now) to watching tv, to driving at night and so on.  I am way BEYOND needing to get my eyes checked again.

My vision is blurry on a good day. Lately, I’ve been getting dizzy pretty often and I have a headache almost every day. It’s not good. I was out the other day with my mom and we were at the grocery store and I couldn’t focus on ANYTHING. every single thing I looked at- near or far- was blurry and I had the sensation on having like.. vaseline over my eyes. Does that make sense? Things are foggy.

The headaches and dizzyness are what’s making me most concerned. When I was in grade 10- that’s when I first went to the eye doctor. I went after I had the most insane vertigo you could imagine. I don’t remember anything from my class that afternoon except crying at my desk and feeling like the world was spinning around me. I fell down twice on my way to my last class and my teacher sent me to the office to call for someone to pick me up because I was useless. It was horrible and the dizzyness didn’t go away for the next 24 hrs.

The dizzyness I have now isn’t that bad at all, but every no and then I get that "whoa…" feeling- like when you stand up too fast. I had to take a gravol yesterday because it was so bad.

Ugh. The eye doctor is EXPENSIVE and not covered by ohip anymore. An appointment alone (without buying frames or glasses) is $200 and I just can’t afford that at all. If I get a job (and I hope I do soon) it’ll be the first thing I start saving for.