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These were two of Felix’s fav songs, and this, was his fav band.

I feel it fitting to post them, being today marks 10 months since I found his body cold and lifeless… *sighs*

I have so much on my mind… but… don’t have the words…. So, this is all you get.

I love the Used… and I miss Felix….

love, love, love the Used. Sadly, i’m mobile and can’t see them. What two songs are they?

sadly, i don’t know either. I’ve not heard that album or their new one. I do believe I’m missing out on something special though. Next time I go to my brother’s, I’ll download them both. 🙂

I know exactly how hard days like today can be. Our anniversary’s coming up (The 23rd.) and I’m not looking forward to it at all! I hope you’re keeping yourself together. *Hugs* stay strong, we’ll make it through this together.

You’re welcome hon… my marriage was headed for divorce too, but that doesn’t make it any easier. I’d rather be divorced, and him hating me, than to have the father of my children dead. Honestly, i can’t give you hope that it gets any easier. I’ve actually found that as the years pass, it’s only getting harder on me. The first year after was a piece of cake, it’s been downhill from there. I’ve had suicide attempts, been institutionalized, seen

I’ve had suicide attempts, been institutionalized, seen psychiatrist after psychiatrist, had my fair share of drug addictions, became a whore and fcked anything that would look at me, i spent more money than i’ve seen in my entire life. (including my children’s college fund..) i’m the typical story of what not to do after being widowed…

Ryn: i hooked up with my ex, not even 2 weeks after burying my hub.. And was engaged to a different guy, not even 2 months after that… I love to txt. 🙂 My number’s 423*912*2928. My phone’S ALWAYS ON, if you need somebody to talk to, I’m always here. *Hugs*

…btw, i don’t think i’ve properly introduced myself.. I’m Crystal, nice to meet you. 🙂

*big tight hugs* Thinking of you, sis. I hope that in time, you will be able to fully heal from the pain of his loss. I know it takes a long time for the soul to heal from something so hard as that. I can’t even imagine. *HUGS* Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers, love.

*hugs*

not so cruel as it sounds, anniversary. not happy, just anniversary.

Its been almost a year.. I hope you get to feeling better soon. I miss him often.. all the time.. every day. I know what its like to have more on your mind than you have the words for. I’m here if you need someone..