01/23/2012

 the wind has been taken out of my sails.  i have so missed od, but i just don’t have much to write about, but, at the same time, i have tons to write about. 

the last two months have been an amazing time of self-discovery, but also of self-doubt, mourning, and trying to figure out what direction my life is going to take.  

first thing every one should know is this: i’m still alive and kicking.  i’m still getting used to the fact that i am now, to put it bluntly, an "orphan."  i have moments when i look around and say "what just happened?"  this time last year my mom was a healthy 70 year old woman.  

quick run down: thanksgiving: i spent it alone.  i was invited to my cousin’s home for thanksgiving, but i decided i wanted to spend thanksgiving alone.  so i did. and i made my own thanksgiving feast from scratch.  there were a couple things that my mom used to make every thanksgiving and i made them myself.  i cooked my own turkey and it came out pretty well.  i made my own cranberry sauce (a recipe my mom had) and that came out wonderfully.  and then i made a "corn casserole" that was top notch, too. 

i’ve discovered something, in case you hadn’t noticed from that last paragraph. i like to cook.  and i cook from scratch.  my aunt informed me that i had "been trained that way" i live for the leftovers.  

chrismas eve i worked.  i went to church and on my way home from church i realized that i hadn’t taken anything out of the freezer for dinner.  as i pulled into my driveway a pizza guy drove by delivering a pizza next door.  that seemed like a great idea, so i ordered a pizza opened a bottle of red wine and watched miracle on 34th street.  <—– new christmas tradition

i bought myself a Nook Tablet for christmas.  i quite enjoy it.  

christmas day i slept til 1 pm.  that was the best christmas present ever,  after i got myself up and going i decided to tweak another christmas tradition that mom and i had started after my dad died.  i went to the Lotus, and chinese joint that has literally been in the same place for close to 40 years.  i got some sweet and sour chicken, went home, opened a bottle of white wine, and put on "a christmas story" watched that and had my christmas feast.  later on in the day i went over to my cousin’s house and supped with them.  

new years eve i was in bed by 1100pm.  didn’t even see the ball drop. 

new years day, i worked

now its just me and my cat, princess emma lou.  she has been such a blessing to me.

i’ve discovered cooking.  last night i baked for the first time.  i baked a crumb cake.  nom-nom. it came out perfectly.  i also cooked a chicken dish that i found a recipe for in the paper.  it came out okay, a tad dry, but edible.  the first time i’ve ever used the broil function on the stove.  i’m learning about wine.  

i’m still here.  sorry i haven’t been around much.  

how’s by you?