Day 24

So Jake decided to close the match before answering questions, the reason being my statements on my profile.  Apparently he didn’t like my profile.  His loss.  But I was really interested.  I’m trying so hard to remember that if I continue doing what I’m supposed to be doing, the Lord will take care of me.  I’ve had so many matches in the last few days that it’s a good reminder that there are other fish in the sea, so to speak.  I had six new matches yesterday morning and another 6 new matches this morning.  If Jake wants to close the match that fast, then it’s his loss.  I’m trying hard not to think of it as my loss too, as I won’t get to know him either.  Still, I wish that someone found me interesting.  But I’m also counting my blessings. In the month of August I’ve been putting my spiritual priorities back in order.  I’ve also gotten a total of 20 new matches in August (including Jake).  So I’m counting my blessings.

This seems like another exercise in patience – waiting for the man I’ll marry.  I think for the first time in my life, I’m truly beginning to trust in the Lord.  I think I’m beginning to understand what it really means to put our lives in the Lord’s hands and trust that all will work out in the end.  I’m also learning to live my life as it is now, rather than waiting for what’s around the corner or up ahead.  If I’m always doing that, then I won’t enjoy and appreciate the events and people that come into my life in the future as I’ll always be looking ahead instead of appreciating what I have.  I still feel like changes are coming – that perhaps this drive to be closer to my Heavenly Father is to help me prepare for those changes.  I know if my life changes, I’m going to need the support and guidance of my Heavenly Father – whether those changes are for the good or the bad as they’re still changes.  I was thinking today about the phrase that change is the only thing you can count on.  I thought that initially, but then I realized that no, it’s not the only thing we can count on.  We can also count on our Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ and the Holy Ghost to see us through.  That no matter what happens, we aren’t alone.  There is someone there for us who wants to help us, wants to see us through to the other side of whatever the challenge is. 

I worked overtime at work today.  6-4:30 is definitely a long day.  But the afternoon actually went pretty fast, mostly because I spent the time from 1-3 on the phone doing mostly training on PUT.   Tomorrow I’m working normal hours.   My parents are going to head down to IL after work on Friday.  Whether I go will mostly depend on how my week goes. 

Today was day two on Proactive.  My skin did feel different today after using it last night.  We’ll see how it continues to perform. I’m only using it once/day as I’m not willing to spend the 15 minutes in the morning.  That should also allow me to extend the life of my supply. 

"Life is measured not by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away."