What to say . . .

Originally, my parents and I were all going to head down to IL today to see my grandparents, but my dad woke up this morning not feeling well, and really feeling like he was getting a cold. With my grandmother’s health, it was decided to have him stay home (which he wanted to do anyway, since he wasn’t feeling well).  My grandmother ended up on new chemo and she isn’t looking good.  It’s been a long time since she looked this bad…I almost want to say the last time I saw her looking this bad was when she was in the hospital in Sept of 07.  Her cough is also worse than I’ve heard it in a long time, and it’s happening more often.  My mom said it best when we got home  – she wouldn’t be surprised if my grandmother saw another Christmas, but she also wouldn’t be surprised if my grandmother passed away before Christmas.  *Sigh* It’s just hard, you know? Even with the gospel, it’s hard.  I know my dad worries that he’ll go on one of his business trips and then she’ll pass away while he’s gone.   I definitely worry that I’ll get a phone call at work saying I need to drop everything and drive to IL. (For more on the work situation, go one entry back).  *Sigh*.