I’m already ready for Monday

*rant*

I can’t do this – I cant be who they want me to be….I hate all of this – I hate that I don’t know where I want to go or what I want to do after Christmas – I hate that everyone wants to ask that, instead of realizing that I have two three weeks of class to get through first, forgetting that graduation isnt the only thing occupying my thoughts

I hate that everyone expects you to start a new track while you’re still trying to finish the old one

*snorts* my dad’s always telling me I should have gone into teaching or meteorology (since Im so interested in the storm) – it’s not enough that I really like politics and find it infinitely more interesting

I hate that the storm is getting us all locked in the house for the whole weekend and it just gives my parents time to ask all about post-graduation stuff when that’s the last thing I want, or have time to think about.  Post-graduation scares the crap out of me – I’ll admit that.  But you know what? I gotta get through the end of the semester before post-graduation is even here.  Why in the world do we force people to immediately acclimate to the huge change that comes after college graduation?  With high school graduation, there’s summer break and then college.  College is different than high school, but it’s enough of a transition that kids are not thrown into the deep end of the pool and expected to sink or swim.  I really feel like the opposite happens after college.  At 22, the sink or swim approach still isn’t reasonable, rational, or responsible, yet it’s used.  I’m not sure the sink or swim approach is ever appropriate.

I can’t do this. I can’t be who everyone wants me to be. I can’t do everything everyone wants me to do.  I just…I just can’t do it anymore.