Now You’re Gone *poem*

Now You’re Gone

Sometimes I wonder
If I had done something different that day
That you would be here
And I wouldnt be feeling this way.

If I would have known
That day was your last
I wouldnt have let
Such precious time pass.

I feel so bad
For the things that I did,
The things that I said
And the feelings I hid.

I really did love you
And I do to this day.
I wish for you to know that
Everytime I kneel to pray.

Now it feels so lonely
Standing here at your grave.
Wondering why you had to go
After everything you gave.

I guess God really needs you
But I feel I need you more.
I’m feeling so alone,
I’ve never felt this way before.

I feel I’ve been abandoned
But I know it isnt so
I just dont understand
Why you had to go.

Now I’m sitting all alone again
Not knowing what to do.
Thinking only of one thing….
I hope I dont dissapoint you.

I wrote that a little while ago and I was reading it again today and I dont really know why I put it in here but I just miss my dad. I wish for so many things to be different but I cant change anything.  Sometimes it seems like nothing is going right, that some things arent supposed to happen but I guess everything happens for a reason. I just have to figure out what that reason is…